your lack of depression is making me nervous. are you okay?

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 -

it just had to rain cats and dogs when i end work punctually at 10. hurhur.
seee, even heaven is playing a joke on me.
*bangs head on the wall ):
okay, so i came home totally D R E N C H E D.
i think i saw my mama's jaw dropped. ooops.

as im typing this, my hands are so shaky that i'll end up typing 'a' instead of an 's'.
hshshs. get it? (:
brrrrr.
what is this? winter?!
freako.

but i got to drink salted vege soup that mama cooked for dinner. (:
and i seriously felt loved after that.
thats like sucha weird emotion to feel huh.
conclusion that weird pple have weird emotions.
yeah yeah yadah yadah, whatever.

oh! jean is glad to announce that the FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH AT SUNTEC IS OPENED AFTER RENOVATION! :D
hip hip hurrayyyyy!!!
i got to listen to continous all time favourites pop/rock/ r&b songs blasting through the speakers.
(lucky there wasnt any techno for i would have gone to smash the speakers)
which somehow or rather made me a lil wee bit more fond of working.
i suppose its good eh.

hahah bartender was being such a corny fellow.
at times i really wonder how he can be so spastic and nonsensical.
one day, i hope i'll be able to explore his brain cells. (:
'aye fuck! why the fountain blast the music so loud! cannot even hear the song in the restaurant (it was usher's My Boo). cheebye lar!'
immediately, he went to the office and turn up the vol a notch louder.
and came out with a triumphant smile on his face.
oh godddd, terrible lar.

shall go and dig out all my old A1, Backstreet Boys, Westlife, Boyzone, Robbie Williams, Blink 182, Simple Plan songs tonight.
basically, playlist for today will be 'boybands'.
cause it seems like a perfect night to drown in these sad sorrowful melodies.
i still do it despite knowing the effects.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:33 PM

Monday, November 28, 2005 -

i strongly encourage the singapore government to put up "NO MAKING OUT" signs in the back alley behind my condo.
yeah, the sign can show no figures kissing or whatsoever with this hugeeee cross over it.
seriously, its disturbing me.
what an eyesore to accidentally bump into couples making out affectionately in CARS.
and i almost dropped my mocha ice cream.
well, this is not the first time. so i believe countless pple encounter the same thing as i do.
its probably annoying them too. tskkk.
i cant imagine young kids on their way home when they see couples doing really weird stuffs in cars. o_O
not a very good thing, i would say.

to all couples out who ARE (the couple i met 20 mins ago are still doing their stuffs) or WERE hankypanky-ing in the back alley:
pls stop causing the public so much inconvenience.
its a better idea to go somewhere really discreet if u really had the urge to .....
you will be much appreciated, at least by me (:
*nodssss

my day started out fine until the damn freaking bus driver piss me off big time.
i wanted to shout 'F*** YOUUUU!'
haha but of course, being the polite me, i didnt.
i mean is it any of yr business to want to know why i use coins instead of my ezlink card to pay for my fare?!?!
if u find that yr job as a bus driver isnt exciting and wanted to seek some entertainment frm questioning me.
then im really sorry that i dont wanna entertain you.
i dont have all the time in the damn world to talk to you.
what an asshole.
thats like not part of yr job.
speaking abt making things difficult, YOU ARE THE ONE! its totally not me.

ohh my gawwwd.
sense my bloood boiling now.
*red blood bubbling in my veins.
why should i get so uptight with such a moronic human being.
so much for excellent customer service huh.
its all bullshit!

oh crap! i just saw my mock paper undone on the desk.
arghhh. ):
alright, i'll take a bath and finish up my homework.
laters people! (:

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 8:50 PM

Life is like a box of chocolates.
It's a cheap thoughtless perfunctory gift that nobody ever asks for. Unreturnable because all you ever get back is another box of chocolates, so you're stuck with unidentifiable whipped mint crap that you mindlessly wolf down when there's nothing left to eat.
Sure, once in a while there's a peanut butter cup or an english toffee, but they're gone too fast and the taste is fleeting.
So you end up with nothing but broken bits with hardened jelly and teeth shattering nuts.
If you're desperate enough to eat that, all you have left is an empty box filled with useless brown paper wrappings.

anw, class gatherings pics are uploaded into 'candies in the sun2' album.
enjoy.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 1:05 AM

Sunday, November 27, 2005 -

alright. lets see...
annie, hc, enmin, sher, jasmine, imelda, peihan, jo and me :D
9 pple for a class gathering? hurhur.
hahah, its the Battle Of The Cliques.
nevertheless, we still had lots of fun and joy like we did in crescent.
oh yes, im really quite proud to say i love crescent baby! haha (:

well well, we played air hockey AGAIN!
tskkk! but like we still lost to that undefeatable hc can.
i cant believe like we still cannot win her after countless practices.
we oughta reflect and see whats going on here.

had marche for dinner.
whoooohoo!
oh man, i seriously miss the caramel bananas waffle with chocolate ice cream. it was perfectooooo (:
managed to catch up on what all of us had been doing since we gone separate ways 11 mths ago.
laughed at our stupidity-filled but carefree days in the past.
it sure brought back lots of lovely memories.
rapping machi didi and jay chou. haha (:
and there's our fav form tcher mad mdm kwan.
oh and of course shared juicy gossips. heh *winks
i had this warm fuzzy feeling in my heart, in a way, it was ....nice.

god, i do miss them.

what i learn is i dont need alot of friends in my life.
all i need is a few good friends who is able to share my joy and sorrows with me.
and im really glad that i came to crescent.
if not i wouldnt have met these guys that made my grey skies turned blue.
so all in all, i simply love 4C3!
hahha. obviously that includes nienie family (:

and omg did i tell u that the new tofuman collection came out alr!
hahha. and i got myself 2.
cake tofu and cookie tofu! yayyyyyyy ! :D

today is one of the few days that i was genuinely happy.
be glad that u dont hafta hear my moodswinging rubbish.
GOODNIGHT.

im half alive, but i feel mostly dead.
i try and tell myself it'll be alright.
i just shouldnt think anymore tonight.
im not crazy cause i take the right pills everyday.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:44 AM

Friday, November 25, 2005 -

SHREK! BURNOUT REVENGE! :D

must play xbox games! haha.
really play until damn high lar.
though ek huiyi mich and i were the only girls there, we made the loudest noise there.
goshhhh, the guys nxt to us can raising his brows at us. o_O
it was just uber hilarious when i realise that shrek could pick up the mice and throw them over a distance!!!
HAHHAHAHA.
i cant describe how fun is the game cause there is lots of exciting stages to overcome. aiyar just go and play lar!
i love shrek cause he looked super comical when he jumps or punch. (:

currently waiting for my macromedia player to finish dl-ing.
so now i cant play isketch.
*sulks ):
omg, the speed is like -1234567bytes/min.
tskkkkk!

back to my jeanette winterson book.
tralala pple.

freedom just for one night.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:59 PM

Thursday, November 24, 2005 -

okay, i give up alr.
my irritating com just had to hang when i open the flash games site.
yeah, its having lots of fun doing that.
GROWLS ):
and now i cant play the cafe game. just great.
@#%^&*!@#

ek just went to cut her hair and now she has a cutesy fringe!
omggg, its somehow amusing.
but good for a change ek! yes? :D
she refused to send me that adorable pic of her and her fringeeee.
so too bad for u guys who didnt get entertainment frm that.
why u dont want to give me!?!?
i promise i'll refrain frm putting as my display pic.
really, i really promise.
*sulks ):
u know jean is a man worthy of her words right?

anw, why doesnt anybody believes i go to the library and borrow books!!!
this is so disappointing lar.
i mean dont i look intellectual enough. *looks at myself in the mirror

<<[ekeRs]>> lies that drop like acid rain says:
to read comics issit?
<<[ekeRs]>> lies that drop like acid rain says:
unbelievable!

wonder if you figured it out says:
haha UNBLIEVABLE.

alright, it seems like its just plain unbelivable.
uh huh, jean DO go to the library. now everybody make an O shape with yr mouth and go 'WOWWWW!'

this is just another drama mama entry.
oh right, as if u didnt realised.

everyone looks retarded once you set yr mind to it.

a child came to santa this morning and his mother said," all right, Jason. tell santa what u want. tell him what u want."
jason said," i.....want.....prokton and........gamble to.....stop animal testing."
the mother said," procter, jason, thats Procter and Gamble. and what do they do to animals? do they torture animals, jason? is that what they do?"
jason said, Yes, they torture.
he was probably six yrs old.

christmas is all about giving and taking.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:06 PM

urge to dye my hair brown and highlight streaks of purple is backkkk.
seriously, i need to spice up my darn dead boring life a lil.
okay i think alot.
and im starting to feel that having tattoos are somewhat nice.
what a weird random thought.

janel's psle results are released tml.
she dont look the least worried or scared to me so i shall not make any effort to be paranoid.
like she's still having a hell lot of fun.
totally tooo much.
*shakes head.

SIGH.

let today be the 'sher said hi' day.
cheerios.

what a loser jean.
it was a wonderful day, but todayy wasnt it.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:12 AM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 -

accompanied that yh on her shopping spree today.
now thats nice (:
i trully believe its a shopping spree cause she spent more than 200 bucks today.
gooodness me. *faints.
her dearest mommy deserves our sympathy.
hello, u poooor auntie!

the white birkenstocks is pretty cooolio.
seriously dont mind getting it man :D
like what yh said, we can be the stripey duo!
"we love stripesss!" chants
hahha, omg this is super lame.
tsk lar.

and whats with sesame street huh?
i mean give me 10 good reasons why a 17 yr old shld go gagag over big BIRD and ELMO.
like "wow! sesame streeet leh!" aye i didnt made this up k!
this just reminded me of SLYVESTER and TWEETY BIRD.
hahhahahahhahah. alright, inside joke. (:
crazy shit i tell u.
u are just tooo big to carry an elmo balloon dude!
anw, i think spongebob squarepants is much much MUCH cuter and adorable.

okay, thats not the point lar.
went to cityhall to meet hc then.
BUT SHE LIKE TOTALLY FORGOT ABT THE TWO OF US.
goshhhh lar, we stalk her she also dunno.
toooooot!
called her like gadzillion times but didnt pick up.
still say what we must pick up our phones when she calls and if necessary put into yr bra so u can sense the vibration.
look who's talking now dude (:
YOU are the one who needs to put yr vibration-machiam-like-no-vibrate phone into yr bra. hahha!

went off to work.
they stupidly wanna have dinner at fish&co lar! o_O
how purposely i ask u!
reallly too much ahh. make me a lil nervous and frantic though.
i almost wanna slaughter both of them when they asked me for more raisins in their rice!
*stares hardd.
man, jokers of the day.
hmmm, i suspect the chef koped part of yr cajun fish, hc.
hahha :D *nods

need to watch harry pottie and the gorberrrlettt of firrrree sooon.
to avoid watching on a weekend.

yeah, overall today was a rubbishy, tired but fun day for me!
so how abt yrs eh?

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:56 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005 -

and so it was a spontaneous dinner meetup with zobyna and zweofen. :D
i pretty much like my outings to be unplanned u see.
life seems more exciting that way, isnt it?

anw the makansutra place at esplanade sells really yummy hokkien mee (: *lick lips
yeah, all along i didnt knew that in this arty farty building which is filled with high class restaurants for high class pple, exists this open air mini hawker centre. haha.
but they shld have more variety of food there.
and it was so bloody windy can.
drank my CHILLED sugar cane and yeah i was shivering.
brrrrrrr
*shakes.

holy crap, max brenner was calling out for me all the time.
the CHOCOLATE FONDUE there is like heavenly to the power of 1 million!
u guys shld definitely go try it. worth yr $$$$.
im currently craving for chocolates now.
how now brown cow?! ):

okay then offf to candy empire!
wheeeeeee.
man i hadnt been there for a hell-knows-how long.
and i saw alot of new chocolates, biscuits, cookies and candies!
jean will be seriously on cloud nine if some kind soul will get me the wonka mud sludge, arnott's chocolate fudge cookies, teddy grahams, honey soy chicken chips, mint cookies!
okay, is that alot? :D
quick look really serious and tell me 'NO'.
thank you very much.

hahha jo and sweofen had to settled on this 80 cents wonka chocolate cause not enough funds.
but nevertheless, they still enjoyed it! hehe.
and omg u shld have seen them before they paid their stuffs at the cashier.
there were more than wonka chocolates but they put them back!
and trust me their expressions just tells me how those candies matter to them.
its alright dudettes! theres always another time (:

WAILSSSS.
ginbabe cant come to class gathering lar.
totally made my day.
whatever lar. piece of shitttt. ):

nvmmm, meeting up with best duddy tml cheered me up.
LALLALA :D
i demanded a jian mian present.
and so she promised me nerds rope and honey soy chicken!
omg, im suddenly damn excited abt tml.
this is so rare. ooops (:

the weird customer who requested for more rasins in her rice oughta get shot.
BANG o_O.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:31 PM

sitting down here, scratching my head, wondering why does the 'A Date With The Vampire' show has a superman!?!?!
like huhhhhhhh, theres no connection betwn superman and vampires!
man, tv programmes are like getting frm bad to worse lar.
mediacorp seriously need to do sth abt the foreign shows they import.

i just ate my dinner.
i just ate my biscuits.
uh huh, at this unearthly hr. *nods (:
in a way, working gives me less time and chances to feast which means i eat less.
hopefully i lose a kg or two.

Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
You're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.
I'm terrible at this, you know.

And I bet you've got every word I said memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them against me.

I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:34 AM

Saturday, November 19, 2005 -

I JUST LOVE MY CLIQUE!!!! :D

gooodness, i came back frm ek's hse, threw my bag onto the floor, ploped onto my comfortable bed and slept like a LOG.
aye try slping at 5 in the morning and waking up at 7 plus o_O
growlssss.

nevertheless, stayover was still prety fun! heh (:
had steamboat before that at marina.
present were yihan reylere ek huiyi mich mad and yh...
yeahhh, we all realised ALLLL of our outings revolves ard foood and foood and MORE FOOOOD.
omg, really uncalled for lar.
so much for our healthy diet. whatever.

we had nice catching up session too.
duhhh of course include gossiping lar.
its like how entertaining can (:
hahha and yihan is really quite random.
her sense of humour increased quite a bit cause we couldnt stop laughin at what she sadi! HAHHA

oh! CHOCOLATE FONDUE with apples bananas and marshmallows!!!
wahhhhhh! i love!
so sinful but erm....satisfiying (:
its really quite saddening that i couldnt get the tabs for 'More Than Words'. boooohoooo.
tried to play on ek's guitar but failed terribly.
bleahhhh.
*hides under the table.

and michelle really has the talents and potential of being a papparazi in future.
gosh lar! she even know whose account to go to in order to find that specific person.
i bet she explores friendster every single day.
hilarious shit i tell u.
well, im really quite WOW-ed by her.
*do thumbs up sign (:
keep up the good work michelleeeee.

prata was MAMA MIA! (:
i guess being hungry make the prata seemed more delicious tooo.
kosong pratas are my all time favourites. *droools.
hmm...one day i'll go on a prata hunt islandwide.
in search of the best prata places man.
and ICE MILO DINO TOOOOOO :D

shit im craving for milo now...
my damn stomach feels funny all day.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:09 PM

Thursday, November 17, 2005 -

after today, im never going to scold any waiter or waitress for bringing the wrong order.
yes u heard me. NEVER.
*raises right hand and looks solemn
but if its bad attitude or slow service, then its a different matter lar.

i mean theres no need for u to get so worked up just cause we mixed up you and yr gf's drinks.
gooodness, in any case u guys were still sharing yr drinks.
so what does it matter!?!?
claiming we were utterly terrible doesnt exacly make u seem very likable. *nods
errr yes, i really do detest u. hurhur.
it could be the bartender's fault so pls get yr freaking facts right before putting the blame on us poor-pple-who-tries-to-provide-excellent-service-yet-have-to-face-stinky-attitudes-like-yrs.

and waittttttt.
you actually made yr girl pay for yr 60 bucks meal on yr dinner date!?!
@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*
pls tell me what kind of gentleman are u!
wth. seriously, u oughta be ashamed.
actually needed yr gf to support u huh?
whatever man.

bleahhh.
totally lost my moood to blog.
sickening shit.

anw tml stayover! :D
wheeeeeeeee.
mahjong, fondue, vcds, steamboat, cards and kbox!!!
exciting baby! (:

still in my fish&co shirt, so offffffff to bathe.
ZOOOOOOOOOOOM
ahhaa (:

edit
based on our 4 yr long lasting friendship, when best duddy asked for my weight for some important stuffs.
i didnt doubt a thing.
BUT omggggg, she tricked me and i told her my freaking weight!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ):

miracle. says:
YES I JUST WENT TO STEP ON THE SCALE ALL BEAUSE OF YOU LOR.
u know this silly tooooot can really me form abs cause of excessive laughter.
HAHHAA.

miracle. says:
STOP COPY AND PASTING CAN?? i always have to overcome a certain emotional barrier before stepping on the scale one k!!!!

seriously, shes like a clown every other day.
shhhhhhhh.
weights are women's darkest secrets.
*zips mouth.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:20 PM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005 -

after some careful observation, i found out that no one employees is found idling/not having any work to do/slacking at any period of their working time.
unless their break time, of course.
the drive and passion they possess made me feel almost ashamed.
and yesss, those firm muscles are kinda attractive (:

i should persuade my mama to get me a osim leg massager.
my pooor feet deserved to be pampered.
pretty sure that it will be use fully! yeah? (:

darn, i hate afternoon shifts.
bleahhhhh.
the freaking crowd just drives me up the walls.

it takes time to get used to all this shitttt.
im starting to recognise the fish and soon the fish will recognise me too.
as for the drinks.... hurhur *looks away

its time to brsuh my teeth :D
thats all folks.

its christmas time again.
its time to be nice to people you cant stand all year.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:46 PM

Tuesday, November 15, 2005 -

SHAGGEDSHAGGEDSHAGGED ):
u know my back is breaking, my arms are numb and my feet are sore.
*SULKS.
):

growls.
at the rate of being the bar and food runner, my biceps and triceps are going to grow in size. it really does.

man, i forgot to eat dinner today!
o_O
its like sooooo not-jean.
i must be toooo beat and busy to rem to have my dinner.

okay okay, my eyes are closing alrrrr.
better go get my sufficient 8 hr rest.
its a longgggggggggggggg day tml.

sighhh.
i survived today, and tml wont be an exception.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:38 PM

Monday, November 14, 2005 -

Do you know why fishes are so smart?
Cause they go to schools!
HAHAHHAHAH ((:
schools of fish, get it?
this is frm the kids menu, like its quite cute lar.

i prefer my 'i have mussels' tee to the 'sea of love' and 'sole provider'.
*nods
OH! and i have this bigggggggg round badge that says 'new @ school, still learning to fin :p'
i guess it means on-the-job trng staff.
man, i feel so kiddish when i put it on. like some KFC Chicky Club member. o_O ooops.

well first day at jobs dont always go very smoothly, does it?
i served the wrong food to the wrong table lar!
really tooooooo much, jean.
when i served the salmon to the man, he stared at me with humongous eyes ):
and i quickly apologised (head hung low), walked away with the slamon.
screwed up piece of shitttttt.

but i think the staffs were pretty sociable.
at least they dont like they'll devour me when i make a stupid mistake.
made me less nervous and more relaxed :D
10 points added!

i learn to arrange and prepare the sauce set.
then how to use the stations to key in orders, call for bill and stuffs. remebering the diff tables numbers was confusing.
trying to decipher the salmon, dory and seabass isnt exactly a very easy and enjoyable task to do on yr first day of work.
the colourful layered drinks made my head swirl for i couldnt matched them to their fanciful names properly.
the pans of fishes arent as light as it seems. esp the seafood platter. gosh, my poor hands were shaking like a frail old women. its a balancing act i would say. i can feel 'mussels' building up. *flex arms (:
and of course there's lots of housekeeping matters like sweeping the floor and cleaning the mirrors.

omg, did i tell you that i was given 2 booklets.
one's on product description and the other is on service language.
this is hilarious shit i tell u! :D
i have to know the description of all the products in the hse at the back of my hand!
the manager will test me.
AHHHHHH *faints.
im drooling uncontrollably. hmmm....yummy (:
1 month down the road, i can be a Fish&Co spokesperson.

i think being the bartender is so god-damn funky!
hahha. u cant enter the bar area or get anything frm there w/o Nik's permission.
as if the whole place belong to him! COOOOL (:
plus u get to use this shower thingy with small number buttons on it that dispense coke and sprites! it really resembles the shower we use at home to bathe! like u press this no then out comes the coke! damnnnn fun leh.
one fine day i'll like to experiment with that :D

hopefully they may put me in the pantry section.
so i can learn to make delicious cakes and soups!!!
seriously, they look very pro and skilled while cooking.
WAHHHHHH. slurps.
*beams (:

okay, im damn shagged today.
stood for 8 hrs straight was no joke okay.
excited to report for work tml cause there's mtv channel on tv!
YAY!(:
aye, whatever lar.
offff to accompany my bed.
take care u fooools. lalala.

WAITTTT! people open yr ears and listen up man!
4C3 CLASS GATHERING ON 26TH NOV!!!!
kepp yr day free alright!
pls help to spread the word though the details are not out yet.
but yeah we finally get to meet after such a long timeeeee. :D
so seeee u there guys!

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:52 PM

Sunday, November 13, 2005 -

boooooo.
jean is going to be a extreme mugger and study her ass offff.

bye.
go entertain yrself and dont always rely on me.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:43 PM

lost season 2 plots twisttttt and turnnnn till it gets unbelievable at times.
sooo addictive. haha its like im glued to it.
really can get heart attack lar.
once you pop, you cant stop.
hmm, sounds familiar. is it a advertsiment slogan?
sorry i cant really rem :D

theres just soooo many shows i wanna catch now.
my OC season 5 onwards. booonie, do u hear me?!? (: *hints
Lost season 2! i bet my cute guy would have made it a more exciting show.
hana yori yango jap version. erm yesss hua zhe lei's role is like OMG-I-NEED-MY-ASTHMA-INHALER! wahhhhhh :D

there'll be a sudden hike in the household electricity bills this mth.
looook at the amt of shows man!
means i hafta leave my com switched on for days and nights...
i seriously hope that my mom dont try to be nice and happily off my com, thinking that i forgot to it. that which it always happens.
NONONO history better not repeat itself! ):

anw, mock exams are just round the corner.
alright im studying but somehow it just wouldnt remain in my hollow brain.
here i am making an effort to get an A but it looks kinda hard and impossible now.
sigh ):
and so i get uptight, paranoid, angry, irritated, worried for no particular reasons these days.
the stress is eating meeeeee.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:22 AM

Friday, November 11, 2005 -

met up with dearest annie today :D
fellow niex nv fails to brighten up my day.
walked ard far east scouting for her black skirt she needs it for waitress job at Grand Copthrone Hotel.
we were sooo desperate and even resort to searching for it in THIS FASHION?!?!
omg that was the first time i step into the shop. hahha o_O
not my type of place im 100% sure. *nods

hmm, then she went to my hairdresser to cut her hair.
no i shld say trim it cause i dont really seee a mega huge diff.
chose a non-punkrock hairstyle for fear her mum will hit the roof and disown her.
we were really pretty worried (:
i feel like using wax rather than gatsby clay now.

and that reminds me i hadnt done my nienie shoes!!! boohooo
jean is jealous, ginannie ):
its such a sad thing. sighhhh
growlsssss.

jobhunt with horse yh and mich wasnt successful.
all of them wanted long term basis but its not possible for them.
most of the staffs directed us to call their customer hotline on mon.
tskkkkk! it just gets on my nerves.
it seems like the whole damn world has got a job to support their happening life but my friends here are still unemployed.
i dont like what i'm feeling.
my new nickname is 'er lang shen'. *stares
doesnt sounds very cool, does it?

THE 3 LAYER FONDUE FOUNTAIN IS JUST SO MOUTH WATERING!!!
omg lar! its like a mini waterfall.
the only diff is chocolate instead of water!
goshhhhh, i couldnt take my eyes off it.
i had the urge to put my mouth there and let the choco fall into my mouth....
wahhhhhhhh! this is really too much.
when i strike rich in future, i'll purchase a 10 layer fondue fountain :D
wheeee!

we were inspired to make choco fondue during stayover nxt wk!
oh man, really excited now!
*dances ard the rm :D
entertainment so far:
mahjong
card games
kbox
liu xing hua yuan (yes! the F4 fever is back! this is so gay)
prata place! (FOOOOD!)
steamboat

praying hard that ginannie job went smooth today. its their first day.
well, just dont get toooo influence by the bengs and lians. *winks
thank goddd.

its funny how my right feet joint can be sore frm all that double bass-ing.
guess nobody ever encounters this.
girl's boxers looks more interesting than normal girl's undies.
i thought underwears are just underwears!?
so wat shit am i talking about.
im targeting the blue and dirty green anyway (:
*search for time crisis gun frantically.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:28 PM

Thursday, November 10, 2005 -

there were parts in EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE that really made me jump out of my chair. but lesser kick then amityville horror (:
oh wells, but it was still fun-filled to see ek huilin behind her jacket 90% of the time. haha
i'm counting down to 3am, then i'll call her phone and go "one, two, three, four, five, SIX. ahhhhhhhh!"
*beams.

it was just plain crazy i tell u.
rushing to far east to cine.
trying to get another tic in the fullypacked peak hr theatre for carol. (we were so god damn lucky cause there's only one empty seat nxt to us)
waiting for carol and mich to arrive.
ALLLL THESE IN 10 MINS BEFORE THE SHOW BEGINS.
omg how power mama lar! (:

oh yes! finally got down to cutting my hair today.
like after 3 million decades ...
cutting hair makes me feel lighter and more presentable so in a way i feel gooood.
no wonder i visit my hairdresser every month.
it doesnt really make my day when pple say i look like a sec 1.
*sulkssss ):

being a middle man is hard.
and somehow or rather i always end up being that person.
not once or twice. but quite a few.
okay, im not grumbling or unhappy abt this. really.
it just amaze me why pple turn to me cause i dont offer very sensible and appropriate advices. like hello its jean, since when does she talks in human language.
all i remember doing was listening to their every single word they say.
thats abt it.
yeah and i dont really know what to say with regard to what they are going through. sorry dudes!
i hope those people feel better out there anyway (:

who do i turn to when things dont go exactly my way?
i'm still trying to figure out.
pretending everything is alright seems like a better choice.
everybody wants something from me.

this is just another 'swinginggggg' entry.
choose to believe it or take it with a pinch of salt?
its yr choice.
oh godddd, i dont even understand what i just typed.
*takes a time-crisi gun and shooot my head

mutters rubbbishhhh.
oksjri5nournvnsgdkqwokhyutmcoauehjvielqoeivm

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:54 PM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005 -

yesterday i rent 'You Got Served' frm video ezy to watch.
the show is darnn coool la! i love david and elgin's crew.
man, their moves are freaking co-ordinated and full of PUNCH!
i watched 4 times over and over again (:
drop it like its hot, baby.

im using bitcomet to dl OC now.
but the speeed is like freaking slow. slow pok i tell u.
nvm at least i still got er zuo ju zhi wen :D
i'm pretty amused by the girl's stupidity and what she can come up with sometimes. hahha.
i think zhen yuan chang fav foood is long beans. if not explain his height.
thank you very much.

sitting here and praying money will fall frm the sky.
like heaven's gift or sth.
bleahhh.
$$$$$$$$$
dream on, jean.

exorcism of emily rose here i come!!!
zippadeedoda zipadeeayee :D
recently i have been looking for stuffs to knock some sense into my so NOT happening life.
and i truly hope that this works.

i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:26 PM

Monday, November 07, 2005 -

@#$%^&*(#%@^#!@**!

one day i will slam my fist into the monitor.
ONE FINE DAY I SWEAR.
its making me curse and swear like some ill-mannered spoilt brat.
i can feeel my blood boiling.
due to the endless pulling of my hair, visit to Beijing 101 (yh says yun nan jian fa zhong xin is uncool) is going to come true. asshole.
WAHHHHHHH!!! ):
*sulksss

W H A T T H E H E L L
theres my nienie photo in the library bk and my busybody mom went to return it w/o asking me!!!
goshhhhh, look what you've done!
its my stuffs you shld have asked me before hand!
now how on earth am i going to find the photo out of say... thousands and thousands of boooks?!
like looking for a needle in a haystack.
my pooor photo. i'll try my utmost best to save yr life. dont worry.
AND I'M REALLY SORRY ANNIE FOR LOSING THAT PHOTO.WASTED YR EFFORT AND TIME BUT PLS DONT KILL ME. MY SEARCH FOR LOST-PHOTO-IN-A-BK IS ONGOING.
library is my 2nd home soon to be.
i just landed into some big shit. sucks.

yh and i filled in the employment forms at suntec toysR'us today.
they have weird pple coming in for interviews o_O.
i tried my luck at Fish&Co then.
guess what, they told me to come nxt mon for trng. see if i was capable for the job (:
well, just really glad that i FINALLY found a job. the pay doesnt really matter much.
at least u wouldnt see me on the streets dying of hunger.
praise the lord man.
and i still find the bar counters quite retro and funky. with the white finishing and colourful vodka bottles :D

janel is on a sch trip in malacca.
woww, i hope the oil palm plantations will amaze her cause its the only thing to get fascinated there. *nods
note i didnt say the shopping centres. they didnt even made it to the list of 'What's fascinating in Malacca' pls.
she called back earlier and told mum that she bought keychains. so i wonder where she bought them frm?
hmmm... *ponders
i thought its a heritage tour?!?!

i need to do some long distance running man.
is running to malacca long enough?

i remember waiting for you to call, waiting for you to find nothing at all.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:21 PM

Sunday, November 06, 2005 -

my hair is in such a bad shaped. oh godddd.
theres like a big dense forests growing on top of my sculp o_O
whao, i can totally imagine.
yeah its time to vist my hairdresser SOON. monthly affair alright.

oh shucks! i better rem to pay my fees tml...
arghhh. sometimes i think im a 80 yr old woman in a 17 yr old teenager's body.
):
my memory is failing so badly it irks me.
whatever man.

hmmm, im gonna go check our toyR'us and B&J tml at suntec.
being out of job is not a pretty good idea ):
i have ZERO cents in my wallet now. holy shit.
yes money is not everything. some things in life such as love and friendship cannot be bought with money.
but its true that money is important and we all cant live without it.
sighhh.
what a materialistic world.

funny videos can really keep me occupied the whole damn night. whoohooo
omgggggg!!!
loook at this dudes!
AHHAHAAHHA. can laugh my ass off i tell u :D

waittt! this angmoh boy is such a pretty boy. awwww (:
tooo cute alr. can i kidnap u home purleeesse?!
yes???

anw, im off now.
its toooooo freaking bored.
my life is on a downhill.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:04 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005 -

booo!
caught up with ginbabe and annietoot today :D
wah like finally after so many unsuccessful outings.
it was GOOOD i must say(: i mean like there isnt one time im not having the time of my life when im with the 2 dearies. yeah
but they do drives me up the walls sometimes. haha

i met annie at 12 at cityhall cause we're in search of white canvas shoes and she was late as usual. tsk!
goshhh, the shopping centre nxt to peninsula plaza (sorry, but i dont know wat its called) is like real freaky.
go there to experience it yrself. its such a eye-opener.
all those odd-looking writings (some other languages) on notices and funny smelling dirty, creepy shops made me feel i was in indonesia or phillipines.
i think i will cry if u leave me there alone.
and we found this SHOES-AS-HIGH-AS-MOUNTAINS shop!!!
yeahh, they pile their shoes on top of another on flat ground.
omg lar. its like even taller than me okay!
overcrowded with sports shoes, sneakers, dunks and leather shoes...
like my eyes wanna go blind looking at them. nv wanna go there again.
NEVER.

oh then headed to orchard mrt to meet ginbabe! YAY.
they were pretty much hungry. nothing new wat (:
decided on far east chicken rice.
but i refrain frm eating the yummilicious chicken which look so tender and juicy. *drooools
rem my LOW-CARB DIET!?! wth...
nonono jean u did the right thing. seee im very very very determined this time (:
darn proud of myself. at least i wasnt guilty or anything.

some Greate Talent person looking for models to pose for New Faces approach the two toots at far east.
my face was like o_O. okay, but she look so pathetic. ended up giving her our contacts.
that stupid anniecheong gave her my no!
): *sulks
wah lao, oughta get shot pls.

shopped ard far east.
whenever we stepped into any shop. we never fail to comment abt DIY-ing the stuffs they made there. uh huh (:
its really crazyshit!
"aye, we can buy sequins and sew onto our bags"
"oh! we buy plain caps then spray paint using stencils."
"we can buy our own buttons and make our earrings"
"make bracelets by putting the beads randomly tgt."

haha get what i mean now? *nods
at this rate right, all the retail shops can just close down their business lar. farrr tooo much.

i can wear a Hollister tee and start HOLLERING.
if you wear Abercrombie and Fitch shirt, be careful for you may CRUMBLE.
dont carry Crumpler bag, later yr paper get CRUMPLED.
dont carry Zinc bag cause its very HEAVY.

HAHHAHA.
damn, this is so ultra super duper lameshitass.
totally cant believe i just typed that.

whatever.
im going b a n a n a s.

anw, we got our acrylic paints and markers for our shoes at art friend tooo! :D
wheeee. i cant wait to get down working on our shoes! *dances ard the place (:
now i have more reason to meet up with my fellow niex. pretty sure it'll be hell lot of laughter and joy.
just hope being the clumsy us, we wont mess up the paints and stuffs.
yeah, cause its waterproof?! very hard to clean up man. no joke.

i used to have this really cute jumper when i was a kid.
its like my all time favourite wear (:
the sudden feeling of " i wanna wear jumper!" is backkkkk :D
what a coincidence, we saw one at topshop today.
i almost wanted to go over and hug it like some long lost friend.
ooops. just kidding dudes. (:
well, i dont mind getting it. but its hard to match. plus im afraid i'll look cheesy in it.
growls.

I'M STILL FREAKING UPSET THAT JAY CHOU DIDNT ATTEND JING QU JIANG ON FRI.
boooohooo.

get a life jean.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:20 PM

Friday, November 04, 2005 -

If we cut out the bad,
Well then we'd have nothing left.
Like I cut up your mouth the night I stuffed it all in
And you lied to the Angel,
Said I stabbed you to death.
If we go at the same time,
They'll clean up the mess.

I lost my head
You couldn't come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun.

OHHH MY GAWD!
im hungry again.
tsk! *stomach growling.

my low-carb diet is marching into its 2nd day.
haha so far its going well but aye never know what comes nxt.
'FOOD' and 'EAT' are very sensitive words.

maybe i should learn frm yh.
drink those special chinese tea that helps to get rid of the oil in the body.
but that's only if you believe yr mum aint lying abt the tea effects.

i really have nothing much to blog abt.
cause im just idling and wasting my precious youth in front of this com 24/7.
really getting sick of this.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:57 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2005 -

huiyi, yh, mich came to my hse to worked out today.
cause we decided we shld stop feasting and get down to get rid those annoying fats.
alright, so we gym-ed.
i taught them how to use the machines and weights. haha looking so much like a pro personal trainer :D
bombarded me with loads of questions.
"how to train flabby arms?", "then stomach leh?".

yeah i did my weights. most prob arms will hurt tml as i havent train them in donkey years ):
later, yh and huiyi went for a swim.
toook lots of stupid and amusing VIDEOS.
omg, can really beng kui. haha.
they attempt to do synchronised swimming lar!
obviously they couldnt co-ordinate and their moves are like erm... very WEIRD I MUST SAY. flapping their arms like wings in the water?!
oops (:
mich caught them on video!
haha now i can blackmail u guys with that! *smirks

went gwc after that. huiyi left so the rest of us went to food court for dinner.
supposed to abstain frm meat but realised we totally cannot make it.
i ate the mini pot noodle thingy! (:
shopped ard for a while,
then omggggg...
pitstop at BEN&JERRY'S!!!

THERE GOES OUR SWEAT AND EFFORT DOWN THE DRAIN.
so much for gyming huh?
()*@#%&)#^*%#@(%*)$

wah lao, jean u are so useless.
why bother going to exercise when you're not gonna control yr freaking diet?
i cant carry on like this. always giving myself excuses to eat such unhealthy goodies when im on a diet. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
okay, starting frm this moment, im going on a LOW CARB diet.
thats it.

anw, we met hockey friends charmaine and theresa working at B&J.
yh had her large choco fudge brownie cone for the price of a small.
tskkk!
my new york super fudge scoop automatically upgraded frm a small to a regular.
maybe if she didnt upgrade my scoop i would feel abit less guilty.
ahhhh! temptations are hard to resist.

anw, asked if they need any part-timers there.
yh and i wrote down our particulars.
hopefully they will get back to us real soon.
and i mean REAL SOOON.
my cash is diminishing at an unforgivable rate.
and i predict its gonna be a negative value in no time.
):
my mum will def hit the rooftop, shoot out frm the hse towards the moon if she gets to know this.
growls, im being a very very bad daughter.

annie's band is performing tml but i cant make it.
sighhhh.
sometimes i believe events are meant to clash so as to straighten out my priorities.
have i told u i hate making decisions.
oh well, alll the way fellow niex! ROCK ON BABE :D
saturday im counting down...

to yinghuey:
dont worry babe. im sure u're gonna be a famous and sucessful synchronised swimmer in future! (: right behind u.
and yeahhh pls cheer for yr muscles are gradually building up.
we are sooooo nearing our waterboys goal :D haha

there is no way i can fit in,
not even the smallest spaces in between.
i finally realised im alone.

-edit-
its time now for Singapore Funniest Home Videos...
we have retards trying to do synchronised swimming here.
omfg, THIS IS REALLLY HILARIOUS.
1st video.
2nd video.
3rd video.
4th video.
5th video.
yeah, people pls dont die laughing.
wouldnt wanna be arrested as murderer and hold responsibilty for the consequences.
*you must have realplayer to see the videos. it takes time to load so pls be patient. (:

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 9:57 PM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 -

i cant believe im being a couch potato at home rotting my time away. wasting my youth man.
what a boring life i lead. growls

1) watched OC season 3 first 4 ep! hip hip hurrray :D
awwww, summer and seth is a adorable couple. they crack me up too much.
2) caught south park too. the 'death of eric cartman' ep was simply amusing o_O
thnks alot booonie (: my sole source of shows for now.
3) uploaded my pics to album. crap, its hell alot i tell u. my com is lagging so badly...
4) overdozed of jay. i mean what can u say abt someone who listen to jay's album for more than 15 hrs? INSANE is prob the word.

can i stay away from reality and live in my imginary world?

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:48 PM

Tuesday, November 01, 2005 -

picnic wth dearest clique today was absolutely FUN :D
havent see those dudettes for some time so was really happy.
we brought sandwiches, chips, seaweed chicken, fishballs, drinks, cupcakes, fruits!

played frisbee tooo! like yh and me against ek and horse.
it was just plain hilarious lar.
we started playing the REAL frisbee. then things changed lar. all of a sudden u can just run with the frisbee to the goal line! wth! this is too much. more of touch rugby to frisbee.
i almost rolled on the floor. *laughed hysetrically

the sun was so scorching that i think if u put an egg on the floor it will be cooked.
crazy i tell u.
applied tanning oil and lied down to tan.
jean loves tanning :) my aim was to reach bronze state. but apparently failed big time. not even anywhere near that. tsk!
the rest were burnt pretty bad. all red and stuffs. i know mich and horse looks like red lobsters now *winks

oh! we had lots of fun phototaking man! wheee!
like really too high...
think of the stupidest thing we can do, we got them captured for u. (:
aye no joke okay!
u gooooooo take a look yrself in album.

but theres no kite!
):
WAILS.
wah lao how can picnic not have a kite.
totally spoils my mood can.
i was sulking on my way there.

anw, i had my fortune read today by miss dai yihan.
shes quite a pro with that horoscope bk, i would say.
yeah she said i had split personality.
?!?!?!?!?!??!
upon thinking, its kinda true in a way.
i set off to town uber excited for my jay album.
trust me i was ALMOST skipping to cine rather then walking.
got my freaking cool album and listened to it on the way home.
and yeahh the R&B songs were pretty sad and touching.
mixed emotions.
it provoked my thoughts. i see pple rushing thru their life and i wonder do they sit down and slowly reflect on things that affects themselves unconsciously. could they tell what i was thinking?
the lyrics are sucking me deeper and DEEPER.
but im going with the flow for i have no intentions of resisting.

playlist for tonight: Jay Chou's November's Chopin.

OC season 3, you got served, flightplan and transporter 2 awaits me.
and gin quick take pics of yr earrings. im yr advertising director. we can make big bucks together.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 9:28 PM