your lack of depression is making me nervous. are you okay?

Friday, December 30, 2005 -

like i said ek, this one's for you! (:
yeah, we both love jay to the core. rocks.

i know the xmas eve pics are uploaded at ek's blog.
looked through it.
no wait, i would rather say LAUGHED through it.
hahha, it was absolutely high until we're gonna hit the moon.(:
but im so freaking lazy to save it and upload to my album.
spoils it all when my lazy mood sets in!
URGH.ARGH.YUCKS.EEEW.

oh wells, i do agree that we share a somehow queer and weird friendship.
i seriously need to change that and fit it into my new year resolution list.
*nods nods.
forget about the 'two's a company, three's a crowd.'
i figure its total bollocks! tsk.
it has to stop being 'me and her' or 'me and herrrr'.
cause its 'me, her and herrrr'
we stick togethter like the elephant super glue. called it inseparable.
:D

shakeeeee it like a polarid picture.

i'll be captivated,
i'll hang frm your lips,
instead of gallows of heartache that hang from above.

am i suppose to be happy for the new year?
certainly need to sleep on it.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:22 PM

Thursday, December 29, 2005 -

whoever says we cant communicate with God. its rubbish.
cause i just did :D
ohhhh man, it sure kept me occupied for quite a while.
he sure has very 'intertesting' replies for what i have to say.
me: i hate myself.
god: perhaps you need some help.
@#%^&*(!@#
erm thats precisely why im talking to YOU?!?!
you know, maybe its not a good idea to interact with him.
well, you guys can try it out.
http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

part of me wants to start afresh when the new year arrives.
the other part is afraid of what the new year has instore for me.
as if this year wasnt turbulent or dramatic.
ARGH. i had enough of all this shitass.
(god says im a 'abusive client')

Because man does little in moderation, selective acceptance of new and revolutionay themes is non-existent.
Consequently, all is chaos, and anything goes, however irrational, that is against established policy.
Causes are a dime in dozen.
Rebellion for rebellion's sake often takes precedent over genuine need for change.
The opposite has become desirable, hence this becomes the Age of Satan.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:18 PM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005 -

ohhh! annie darling is back from her hongkong trip! (:
gosh, we do miss her quite alot.
think im quite excited to see what she bought for us!
presents here i come...teehee (:

lets see, post x'mas dinner with yh, sher and hc!
Sphagheddies served pretty awesome pasta with ham and mushroom. i love. (:
and we all agree Stich the Magician that sher got for hc frm japan is so freaking CUTEEEEE!
the two fangs on Stich totally resembles her owner's bottom lip piercings.
GROWLS.
booohooo. tonight i will embark on my secret mission to kidnap Stich frm that evil ching. *grins

that woman couldnt stop whining and pestering us to give her the present throughout the whole damn dinner!
goodness gracious lar!
now and then she goes ' I WANT MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT NOW.'
i swear her hopes were high and all excited. yeah yeah.

after dinner, we shopped around.
i didnt get any stuffs cause my wallet was alr very 'thin' (which means theres no cash inside)
URGH. ihateitwhenthereismoneyissues.
$$$$$$$.
omg did i mention that ching bought 160 worth of sisley and topman clothes!?!?!
its absolutely insane i tell u!

after that was Swensen's for desert!!!
ohhh yes yes baby :D
chocolate freckles peak, my all time fav.
and everybody love their presents!
awwwww, how heartwarming.
well, both sher and yh got their wish granted and got a prettyyy clutch each.
that ching immediately wore the new cap we bought her. so i believed she thinks its cool bananas too! :D
its little things like these that brightens up my day.
didnt take any photos, so like im kind of sad.

omg, how can u bear to lie when the truth is right before me.
it hurts real bad.
please let me know whats yr definition of "important".

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:10 PM

Tuesday, December 27, 2005 -

alright, im devastated/upset/truamatized/cranky mood now.
RAH RAH!
reason being?
I BROKE MY FAV ORANGE ADIDAS WATCH STRAP!!!
i mean who can be so fucking stupid to do that?
omg, that idiot is me. ):
for yr info, my precious watch stays on my wrist 24/7, heardly leaves my hand and stick to me wherever i go.
now i feel like part of me is missing.
god damn, seriously dont like this at all.
*pulls a long face.

if there's no one besides you when your soul embarks,
then i'll follow you into the dark.
if heaven and hell decided that they both are satisfied,
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs.
i learned to play on the safe side so i wont get hurt.
i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me.
i find it hard to let anyone else in.
oh yes, i'm afraid.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:12 PM

Sunday, December 25, 2005 -

HOHOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
tis the season of love, joy and peace.
love actually is all around! (oh yeah, we watched the vcd this afternoon! small little sam was being real sweeet! a must-watch home movie during christmas!)

saturday
whole gang was suppose to meet at 2 at ang mo kio station to do some grocery shopping for bbq later on at ek's place.
but in the end it was down to yh,sy and me. COOOL RIGHT?
gosh, the ntuc is really damn pok i tell u.
all the corns, marshmellows and potatoes were totalyl wiped out.
i almost thought there was some emergency food rationing.

bought the stuffs we needed and head on down to ek's place by cab cause it was pouring cats and dogs!
anw thats not the point! all of us were pratically gorging ourselves with food 24/7.
theres chicken wings, sausages, ham, crabmeat, marshmellow, chips, logcake, prawns and sotongs.
damnnit, im so sure i'll gain like 10 kg after the christmas period.
RAH RAH, spoils it all! ):

oh and we all love pictionary!
its highly entertaining and amusing. but i really suck at drawing lar.
u wouldnt wanna know my art grade when i was in sec sch. hurhur
and those guys were like dancing wildly and singing at the top of their voice to my humps, cant fight the moonlight, jerk it out and lots more.
hahha all the party hits!
gosh, i sworeeeeee that video where ek and horse using the mayonnaise bottle as mike and singing loudly WAS SOOOOO UBER FREAKING HILARIOUS!!!
i laughed till i almost dropped the camera. HAHA.

we tried to find a mediacorp channel, hoping there is a countdown party but there isnt.
so in the end we switched to channel newsasia and follow their time.
oh yeah, i agree its O_O!
anyway, throught the lucky dip i got michelle's spastic but useful mini tissue box! (:
thanks babe...

so its mahjong, pictionary, heart attack using mahjong tiles (damn high playing that game! how about some 'pong' attack aye?) and truth or dare throughout the night.
slept at ard 5 plus and woke up at 11 nxt morn!
okay, im a pig, hear me oink! (:

sunday
ordered macs delievery!!! YUMMMY *chomps chomps
movie marathon straight away!
love actually! i feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes....
sky high! yeahh warren peace is like much cooler then will stronghold.
what a corny show :D
monsters inc. watched like amilion times alr but still going on. that ek know the exact words to say at the exact time! gosh, whats wrong with her!

i love christmas season.
and this year was no exception :D

tata i need my sleeeeeeep NOW!

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:25 PM

Thursday, December 22, 2005 -

according to the chinese, today is the 'dong zhi' festival?!?!?
sorry, i also dont know what festival is that lar!
yeahh but u are suppose to eat tang yuan on this day, it symbolises that one is now 1 freaking yr older.
aiyar, somewhere along that line. RAH!
so now i announce myself 18 after gobbling down 4 peanut filling tang yuan! :D
WHEEEE!
i feeel much older, wiser and erm......fat(?!?!) now.
HOHOHO Merry Christmas!

oh! and i met GEE in the afternoon today after work!
omg, its such a coincidence.
conclusion is that we fellow nienies have abundant fate. thus explains why i will even meet her walking alone aimlessly in suntec.
really!
i was like thinking 'aye that girl in NJ shirt looks very very VERY familiar' when i spotted her frm the back.
after scanning her head to toe, her thin silky hair gave it all away.
hahha oh yes we were happy yet shocked to see each other.

okay, tml new song alr! this is getting exciting.

hey boonie, we had better pray our big mission tml turns out well and be a huge success. (:
haha a good TESTING experiment for future references.
dont u agree?

i realise my entries are getting shorter and shorter.
maybe its just lazy me.
maybe im thinking a tad too much. its the night afterall.
or maybe my life is like boring with a capital B where theres nothing worth to blog about.
oh wells, that must be it.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:44 PM

recently, i've been pretty much in love with watching Friends, all thanks to ginny cheong.
omg, IT IS REALLY FUNNY-LAUGH-YR-HEAD-OFF.
and jennifer anniston looks stunning in the show :D nice
its a plus point to watch.

in the afternoon, my room was turned into a mini arcade.
hahah i shifted ginny's laptop next to her where she was sitted at the desk playing my com.
Puzzle Fighter on my com, Crazyyyy Taxi on laptop!
omg, i believe i really suck at Puzzle Fighter caused i was thrashed badly.
THRASHED, u heard me.
i was constantly switching between both games.
and we felt like american high school bummers who spent their summer breaks in front of screens 24/7.
yeah, baby!
my sis asked me a relatively profound and thought-provoking question just now.
"why the taxi in the game has only 1 passenger? the taxi is so big!"
*faints

after a few seconds i was revived.
oh thank god!
i went town to look for yh and sher at say, 5.30.
shopped and walked around again. whats new? :D
waitied for boon to arrive, then went to cut my hair!
YIPPPEEE!
awesome feeling.
its like i feel so light and carefree once again.
but of course it wont stay for long.

todays BREAD day.
Delifrance, Subway, YaKun Kaya Toast...
i think a dozen loaves of Bonjour assorted flavour bread wll make a very satisfying xmas present for our dearest sherilyn. ahah (:

JAYla is a cool name.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:06 AM

Tuesday, December 20, 2005 -

i was greeted by gin's xmas card yest when i went to open the letterbox.
at least now we know mr postman aint slacking :D
the front cover showed 2 rows of reindeers wrapped in scarves.
I LOVEE THE CARD!!! (:
the cutest part was spotting Rudolph the Rednosed reindeer out of all the reindeers.
its so damn seeeeerrrweeet.
i cant even rem when was the last time i received such a nice christmas card frm a loving close friend.
yes the feeling is good. like duh!

okay, after all the changing of plans, its finally settled at ek's place.
bbq is our favourite form of gathering and bonding.
hopefully we can settle the food issue fast.
drags toooo long and i'll hit the damn roof.

dumbshit, do u call this cranki-ness?

anw, my hair is in a totally bad shape now.
you can say its in a KA NA SEI state.
*pulls hair......
omg lar, i feel so ashamed! ): dig a hole and hide in it so nobody will see my hideous hair.

orange is the new pink.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:29 PM

Sunday, December 18, 2005 -

sunday is family day.
all my uncles, aunties and younger cousins came over to my place for a early christmas celebration?!? o_O
oh yes, i thought it was abit toooooo early.

its a laze-and-eat day for me.
the kids were playing in the pool but i was too god damn lazy to swim.
hurhur (:
godmum fooled everyone with the log cake she made.
we thought it was bought cause it was in a sweet secret box.
reallly tooo much lar!
oh oh! i was pretty amused when i unknowingly discovered that i could UNROLL a slice of logcake.
HAHAA.
half the time i was playing with my food instead of enjoying it lar.

hmm, we had a great time.
actually, i love my family to the moon and back :D

uploaded pics into album tooo.
i cant help it if im so efficient.

how can i be crazy when i have already taken my pills.
right?

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:17 PM

Saturday, December 17, 2005 -

wah lao, todays christmas shopping trip was not very fruitful.
1 down and i've got 6 more to go.
tsk! its really draining all my energy away.
great huh? *rolls eyes.

oh! and the funny incident today is...
our dearest loh yinghuey stuck in the Guess changing room for 10 secs!
she fumbled with the lock for quite some time before the staff in charge of the changing room came to her rescue. HAHAH :D
her: 'omg, im so embarrassed!'
me: 'yar lar! to think i was standing here wondering whos that loser. and it turns out to be you!'
oooops, but yeahhh so many pple used the changing room and it just had to be YOU who got stuck.
even more accurate then striking lottery dude!

and the crowds that mango sale attracts are really quite nightmar-ish.
if you dont wanna get choked to death due to insufficient oxygen, go at yr own risk.
okay, i hate crowds.
fullstop.

we had our long awaited Sakae Sushi for dinner.
yay! :D we missed it alot alot.
oh god, chawanmushi! mmmmm *lick lips.
more more! *chants

ROAR.
i just gobbled down an egg tart frm crystal jade.
but it wasnt meant to be this way, i was suupose to be able to resist it!
oh wells, this sucks.
my tummy sucks. ):
maybe i shld get the Osim uZap too and start zapping my fats away.
( the word zap reminds me of the star wars light sabre)
o_O ?!?!?!

nights world.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:26 PM

Friday, December 16, 2005 -

ek's fringe really make her look like a doll now.
it keeps getting into her eye and hindering her vision (:
but being the evil her, she obviously wont let me take a pic of her with her amusing fringe (she thinks its very hideous).
ROARRR!
though she abused me when i imitate her speak in such a bimbotic way 'i cant live without meat...OH GOD...MEAT!' and insists i get her the XXL toberone bar even after theres KOSONG in my thin wallet,
i still love her. :D
stupid girl u better be touched lor!

Borders have really GOOD and PUN-INTENDED joke books!
ek and i stood there for more than 30 mins laughing our heads off.
HAHAHA. it was so so so hilarious!
like stomach started aching and eyes tearing.
what did the tomato say to the other tomato behind him?
KETCHUP.
gosh, i swear that those writes arent in the right state of mind (:
but...we enjoyed it. so yeah.

then headed to our favourite hang out place!
x squareeeeeeeeee :D
oh yes, u are right. of course we played burnout revenge first!
The Incredibles isnt that fun compared to Shrek 2.
our hands actually hurt a lil from pressing the damn buttons.
must be too enthu then press tooo hard. haha.

ek huilin, hurry upload the photos!!!
i want them so be more efficient! (:
and oh god, please NEVER EVER EVER show others that totally stupid and spoil-image video.
i will knock my head against the wall if u do.
seriously.

bbq.
mahjong.
playstation.
pictionary/taboo.
stayover.
finally i see this heading somewhere.

to tell u the truth, im sick and tired of making this first step.
i should quit being initiative. or rather over initiative.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:19 PM

till today, i still firmly believe resturants and food courts cant be compared to hawker centre foood.
cause the food is cheap and oishi! worth the value.
and i really love the dessert stall at redhill market. mmm (:
you pple shld make a trip down too. i bet u will get addicted like me!

a million thoughts are going through my small useless brain now.
i cant put them down in words cause im really not a expressive person nor am i goood with words.
this way, others wont assume about sensitive issues i speak abt on my blog.
yeah, i think its good.
plus, blogs arent the best place to speak abt stuffs close to yr heart.
cause obviously after u publish it, the whole damn world get to know about all those screwed up shit.
not private anymore and like blogs are meant to be private?
well, not anymore.
whatever it is, its for you to guess and me to find out.

all of them wants something from me.
im afraid i'll disappoint them.
sorry.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:04 AM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005 -

im just really amused that boon's laptop can store the whole of OC season 3!?!
like its a very BIG GIGANTIC HUMONGOUS file.
oh goddd, according to her it can store up to 30GB worth of media stuffs, blah blah...
really power mama i tell u.
*faints
it just proves how shitifed my com is! *bang fists on the com.

okay, i need to schedule myself to go boon's place for OC and then to gin's place for Friends.
like oooooohhhh, how exciting! :D
ADAM BRODY! i love!
oh yes, i think phoebe is one hilarious shit. haha.
all of a sudden, i feel so bimbotic.
tsk! tsk!

i've got ths sense of achievement now cause i made a lil bit of progress for christmas shopping.
and i mean LITTLE BIT.
hhahha i made a list of pple to get gifts for.
what do u expect? a little progress is better than no progress okay.
now, its time to get gifts for those dudes :D

oh nooooooo!
christmas is next week and we still havent come up with a detailed plan for the celebration.
its so *&^%$#@!*
and i really dunno how to play mahjong can! ): okay dont laugh at me.
the sudden outbursts of 'PONG!' made me jumped!
okay, i shall stick to playing..... erm snap?!
gosh, i cant even grasp daidi lar!
please shooot me now. i'll be more than happy.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:28 PM

Tuesday, December 13, 2005 -

what the fuck is so great about feeling?
cause when i finally let myself,
i feel like my heart's been completely ripped out.

nights like this i wish raindrops would fall to cover my tears.
wishing i could replace all those wasted years,
of loving someone who couldnt love me back.
and now again i gotta start from scratch.
but i know i've given you my everything.

what an appropriate song in this period of time.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:53 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005 -

oh yes, now i can put up mtvs easily all thnks to YouTube! (:
its a undeniable fact that jay looks UBER shuai in this mv.
goood stuffs :D
WHEEEE *hops ard.

anw i feel so dumb today cause i realised im not scheduled to work today....
so i went to workplace and was quite o_O.
i was like 'where's my name!' on the schedule list.
GROWLS.
okay, i wasted like 2 hrs of sleep.
aint very pleased abt that, really.

while waiting for gin to come town, i visted this pet shop.
and i saw the cutest thing ever!
guinea pigs!!! :D
frm far they totally looked like BALLS OF FUR.
hahaaa, i got this urge to carry it then but course not.
omg, really so so so adorable!
such CUTIE PIE! but its 150 lar.
since when did i turn into a rich brat? ):

for you:
it must be really hard for you to pull through.
though i couldnt feel the pain inside yr heart,
the hurt u gone through somehow makes me want to cry.
now, dry those tears for we'll stick close to you till the end.
tomorrow, you will be a much stronger person.
tomorrow, will be a better day.
yes im sure of that.

and to him:
okay, Y O U S U C K!
i hope i made that clear enough.

you know i feel myself getting cranky now.
so i had better be off in case i start spouting nonsense.
POOOOF!

and BYE SHER! have a safe trip to japan!
u shld be excited cause u get to eat endless supply of FRESH chawanmushi (:

oh santa, do u see my christmas wishlist?

reminds me i havent got presents. right fuck.
what can i do if my butt refuse to budge...

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 8:20 PM

Sunday, December 11, 2005 -

isohatequeues.
this is no joke okay.
yes i went to the great john little sale at expo with my parents.
freaking alot of middle aged people.
dad and i ended queueing for more than 45 mins at the darn cashier.
wanna know how far the queue is?!
let me tell u, its abt 3/4 the perimeter of the super huge hall!
ohhhhhhhhh god.
and theres no reason u shld go there unless u are a typical ah soh/houswife who totally chiong at really cheap stuffs.
right, to hell with the queues. :D
yadah yadah...

man, i had a difficult time trying to convince my sis that her bus fare is NOT 30 cents but 45 cents. o_O
like my mouth went dry and i almost dehydrated.
she's such a toot lar.
sometimes i wonder if shes acting dumb purposely to agitate me likes nobody business.
ARGHHH!
*frowns

i saw this really hilarious thing in the afternoon!
on my way to uncle's hse in the neighbourhood.
then i saw this makeshift stall outside the interchange which sells imitation goods.
aye LV, burberry, gucci, prada and the list goes on.
but thats not what that caught my eye.
its this Hugo Boss perfume that looks exactly like the REAL hugo boss green package.
i looked closer and i saw the word 'BOOS' replacing 'BOSS'!!!
omg, i wanted to burst out laughin but the guy was starin at me so i controlled.
HAHAHAHHAHA!
seriously, do they take us customers as big fools of the century?!
now, im having a laughing fit.

i need to shop.
for CHRISTMAS.
((:

on the first day of christmas my true love gave to me,
a body........dead.......wrapped in plastic.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:36 PM

prata was GOOD as usual (:
everyone was sleepy cause didnt had much slp the previous night.
and that explains why we were pretty stoned/cranky/ no-mood-to-shop state in the heart of town.
argh!
i dont exactly like it this way.

okay, i'll go check on the paul smith wallet on ebay soon to see how its progressing.
oh goddd, i hope it remains at 18 pounds.
hahaa *close eyes and put hands tgt (:
yeahh, by now u would have guess im very into stripessss.
ohh lala (:

hmm, enough of alternative rock for now.
so im going back to pop for a while.
the click five songs are repeating on my playlist :D
they have beatles-lookalike hairstyles that made me thought 'what kind of f***ing band is this?!'
but i was wrong cause i was instantly glued to their songs.
hahha I LOVE THEIR HAIR!

LOOK at their hair!
told u alr. i didnt lie at all k.
COOOL GEEKS i would say eh!

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:16 AM

Saturday, December 10, 2005 -

ah hem! my poor brain cells have been active since 8 till now.
its really mentally exhausting! *faints
those "bang, bang, bang who dies?" , "black magic" games and riddles almost killed me.
thank goddddd.
buttt it was really hell entertaining.
sher kept flipping her hand to a pt where she got tired.
and hc is always too slow to get the trick. haha.
we laughed shouted and screamed damn loudly in starbucks! oops :D

OTTFFS_
guess the last letter!
u guys must help me!
they insist that prata is one me if i cant get it.
wah lao, i think i have prob paying for my prata tml.
shuckssss ):
please tell me this aint happening to me.

and how can i forget all my classmates in 4C3 after like, say what, 11 mths?!?
like i have problems listing down their names even!
suddenly mental block can.
me: " eh how to spell... marilyn?"
gosh, whats wrong with me.

actually, christmas is making me turn into kan cheong spider.
totally have no idea how many xmas presents im getting.
as well as what to get for who.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i never knew it was so hard lar.
not exactly very good news cause christmas is creeping in.

yeah, im gonna die.
DIE!

oh oh prata here i comeeeeee! (:

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:04 AM

Thursday, December 08, 2005 -

okay so i went to Raffles Medical Group at taka today to take my typhoid jab.
it turns out less scary then i thought.
but that hc was being such a sadist and insits on witnessing the whole injection process.
tskkkk!
its funny how she's afraid of injections instead of piercings.
now my upper left arm feels heavy and numb, its like i have no energy to lift it up.
and i dont like that feeling. ):
oh shit! how on earth am i gonna carry the ultra heavy pans tml?!?!
ahhhhhhhhhhh!

omg, SAW 2 IS SUCHA EXCITING AND COOLIO SHOW! :D
oh yes, there will be blood.
i couldnt really sit still throughout the 1hr 30mins and not to mention that my heart was beating so fast.
and i love twisted plots!
the traps jigsaw invented was just o_O.
or rather O_O if u see what im trying to emphasis.
haha, yinghuey was on the verge of crying.
awwwwww, pls dont cry. (:
yeah, u guys shld go watch it!

street magicians like david blaine and chriss angel just make me go WOW.
funky mama. (:

calling out to wee huiching...
jean's xmas wishlist for 2005!
1) black ipod nano! *looks at yr topman card (:
2) will love the sony cybershot T9 digital cam! yes i can lend it to u for yr solo shots.
3) aye ang pow money also not bad leh. *nods
new yr is coming anw dude.
4) wants a leather wallet.
5) doesnt mind a funky bag too!
6) oh! a all-occasion coat/ jacket will be good.

alright, thats all for now.
i'll def make yr job easier by coming up with more items! :D
*flash million dollar smile

damnnn.
buying xmas presents gives me throbbing headaches.
how now brown cow?

EK HUILIN, WE BETTER HURRY ORAGNISE THE XMAS PARRRTY K!

see u later, alligator.
as you wish, jellyfish.
HAHAH.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:07 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005 -

what did i eat last night? *wonders
cause i had a terrible stomachache today.
like within 1 hr of working i visited mr loo TWICE.
trouble walking for i couldnt stand up right.
i bet my manager thinks im a baby who cant control my freaking bladder.
but after i shit-ed everything out, i felt really... erm light.
hahha, okay this is damn YUCK.

most prob gonna take my typhim vaccination tml.
HOWWWWW?!
even the thought of it gives me the creeps.
somebody save me! ):
uh huh, i've got low threshold of pain.
okay okay, i'll pray hard i get a nice and gentle doc who doesnt go ard poking my arm 10 times trying to find the vein.
thats good enough.
wha lao, its just a jab, whats there to be afraid of.
dont be such a loser jean.

intergration is such a pain in the arse.
so i just laughed at the question, skipped it and slept through the darn paper.
how interesting.

its time for me to get a new bag, leather wallet and jacket.
where's the money? where's the money? *chants

people so caught up in their own lil world.
there isnt a place for me to settle down.
fear, loneliness and insecurity is here to stay.
bravo.

how come i dont feel x'mas coming?

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:52 PM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005 -

i wouldnt say today was a real good day nor its awfully bad.
maybe somewhere in the middle.
more towards which side? i have no idea. ):

all along i thought i was over the whole thing, but i proved myself otherwise again.
oh wells, when will i learn to be a stronger person i always dream of.
sighhh.
those tears.
tears of pain and sorrow.
right now, im gonna dig a 10m by 10m hole and hibernate inside till...the time is right.
yes so BYE.

i snap. come near me at yr own risk.

*loh ying huey.
now that u're back, i'll be waiting for prata.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:18 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005 -

came home frm work and self-invited myself to the plate of untouched muah chee on the kitchen table :D
hehe. i just love peanuts.
the peanuts made me go nuts.
dont ask me why but i got this thing for peanuts.
peanut butter, kit kat peanut butter, tutu kueh with peanut filling, ang ku kueh with peanut filling, peanut butter ice cream.
wahhh, totally irresistable. mmmmm.
ohhh now i know the cause of those annoying pimples on my face. ):

anw, im wondering if i shld take up guitar tooo.
both acoustic and electric is fine with me.
but i guess acoustic is easier.
bleahhh, hopefully my mama is nice enough to sponsor me.
somebody whos in the right state of mind prob wouldnt agree for i'll prob strum and provide noise pollution everyday.
wailssss ):

and i really dislike the britney spear's xmas song playing at fish&co.
goshhh, she just sucks to the core can.
oh my pooor ears!

yes yes, its time to get down to some serious xmas shopping.
too much friends, too little time.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:06 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005 -

all i want for christmas is you.

22 days to christmasss! cheerios :D

i wish i had interesting stuffs to blog abt but no, so hear goes my x'mas wishlist this yr :
1) wants a 6mega pixel digi cam. so i can fully make use of my photoediting skills.
2) the ipod nano black! sleek cool and classic. goodness.
3) ard 300 bucks to cover a wakeboarding course. say wanna learn till now still no actions.
4) hmm more money to go shopping! $$_$$

okay, im in a very christmas-y mood today.
pardon me and blame it on my ...hormones?
oh oh.
frosty the snowman....lalala.

give me a xbox, com with internet and scv
i'll be one happy kid.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:08 PM

one bottle of mineral water.
roasted chicken flavour calbee chips?!
kaya toast w/o butter.
long john silver's combo 1 (their serving is getting super miserable. LOUSY).
look at the amount of food i had for dinner.
it consists of lil bit of food here and there. like rojak mix everything tgt.
i better stop eating and spare a thought for my growing buddy down here. *hits stomach like tarzan. (:

hc hair is like GOLDEN now. BRIGHT GOLDEN.
she says she looks like an angmoh frm the back.
yeah right, dude. u tooot :D
but i still think u look like those typical ah pek in the rundown kopitiam drinking teh as u read the daily papers.
its very hot and humid.
lots of dust as the vehicles zoom by.
morning sun hang brightly in the sky.
seriously, i can picture all of this in my head.
and i couldnt stop giggling. hehe (:

and KOF sure has weird characters.
a very good example will be KING.
o_O its funny why she wears a suit.

GEE: dont worry babe. bear with it. i'll brave all waves and storm to see u someday! and im sure i'll see u survive those slippers-throwing, screaming and heartaches once again. love love.

okay lar, jean is a suaku.
she nv go bugis street before.
laugh all u wantttt.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:11 AM

Thursday, December 01, 2005 -

best duddy is flying to the city-of-transexuals aka thailand tml morn. hahha :D
yeah i can only rem that the country is filled with lots of transexuals.
goodness so scary can.
anw, u stupid girl better buy cool stuffs back!
and i dont want thai local products leh, dont really fancy their kind of food.
HINT HINT (:
better start yr saving plan soon. like NOW.
really tooo much. sometimes i wonder where u get to have endless supply of cash frm! *snatch yr money.
quick ROLLLLLL back to our sunny island k.
i cant wait for PRATA! yummmmmy.
*swallows saliva.
okie dokey, i'll try my utmost best to miss you. at least alil.
so no sweat babe!

huh! i just realised that sher made a trip to genting for hol!?!?!
gosh, how come i dunno. no wonder i didnt see her online these few days. hahha
for a moment i thought u were abducted by aliens.
haha ZATHURA! *faints

how come everybody get to go for short hol trips and poor me is stuck here ):
stuck in a not very happening place, with a not very happening life and not very happening job.
*SULKS.
oh wells, i suck can.

is it me or do i hear my stomach growling o_O

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:51 PM

off days are times for me to reflect on the past hectic wk and catch up on my rest. (:
explains why im here.
currently reading Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code.
yes yes i know the whole world alr read that fascinating book and i'm the last person to read it.
haha...SLOW.
whatever u say.

wont be able to get guitar today.
but annie says the nxt time she goes work so it wont be long.
yays :D

there's really nothing much to talk abt.
cause my life is oh-so-boring.
ranting abt sad suffs really make me seem like one depressed emotional shit.
i mean u guys had enough so i'll spare yr frm my rubbish.
hurhur.

all i can say is i dont really like craig david but his 'Dont Love You No More' is stuck in my head.

thats when u turn and said to me,
i dont care babe who's right or wrong.
i just dont love you no more.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 1:40 PM