your lack of depression is making me nervous. are you okay?

Monday, February 27, 2006 -

just when i was in my dreamy perfect wonderland, the loud hacking and hitting of the bathrooom tiles woke me up!
like TOCK TOCK TOCK continously leh. my god.
AT 730 IN THE DAMN MORNING.
the worker is really a big stupid asshole lar. a piece of shit!
and so today i was walking zombie.
):
cant even use the bathroom to bathe now.
the workers have to hack the tiles, apply the glue and replace new tiles, let it dry and stay in place.
at least 3 to 4 days to complete.
KANASEI!
so troublesome for me to keep going to my parent's bathroom to bathe.

imagine if the embossed words on my credit card was 'Jean Mean'.
hahhahahahah! i think i will be laughing stock of the century.
to tell u the truth, i was very tempted to write that in the application form. :D
but nahhhh, that would be a freaking silly thing to do.
i was wondering lar. its not my fault if i have fertile imagination and weird ideas in my head.

okay, i majorly screwed up my stats 1 paper.
quick congratulate me.
this suck wOrRrxXx.
omg, randomness strikes. o_O

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:13 AM

Sunday, February 26, 2006 -

once a while, i hear pple ard me saying they were looking for the nyp sex video.
seriously, i think these free pple reallly have nothing to do but to resort to this to kill time.
i cant imagine how stupid i would look doin that. o_O
but anw, thats not the point cause resourceful michelle actually has the bloody video!!! like HUHHHHHH?!
omfg. that girl really stunned me man!
oh! and she told me the CLARITY IS REAL GOOD.
but i still cant freaking believe it cause it was captured in a handphone!
hur hur, so much for the invention of a 2 megapixel camera with high resolution. :D
the government shld consider classifying handphones as highy dangerous items.
hahha mich only watch one min of it to check out the clarity.
we both agree that its 'low grade' porn video. wth. just a waste of time i tell u.

my father's sense of humour is improving tremendously.
eh its worth mentioning okay after i see how glum he can look at times.
this afternoon, he went to prank call on my sis frm the intercom.
well, my sis was home alone u see.
he covered the lenses with his hands and goes "dinner delievery!"
for yr info, our family dont order catering on weekends.
HAHHAHAHAHA. (:
his tone was really SUPER ULTRA funny.
i was squatting and trying my utmost best not to laugh out loud.
i guess my sis got freaked out big time. i thought so.
"huhhhh, no we never order! who are u? *pauses. okay byebye."
classic. (:

CALLING OUT TO ALL HUMAN BEINGS OF THE WORLD!!!
JEAN IS CURRENTLY LOOKING FOR RETRO DESIGNS WALLPAPERS/WALLBANDS.
SO IF U HAPPEN TO KNOW WHERE TO GET IT, KINDLY LET ME KNOW!
PRETTY PLEASE WITH ICE CREAM ON TOP.
YOU WILL BE HANDSOMELY REWARDED.
i will treat you to......... erm i havet thought of anything at the moment!
actually i saw some fucking retro designs at Molecule.
but gosh, its priced at 195 bucks!
can just rob my money lar. growls. ):

back to the 80's disco diva, baby! whee.

okay, tml i better remind my mama to print the dbs debit card application form.
later she forget again, then must take eons to process.
so damn annoying!

DAMN. im halfway through my notes only!
great. now even the buddha, allah, jesus can do nothing abt this but watch me die a horrible death.
i hate it when im asked to comment on my results.
so skip Section A, and concentrate on section B. hahah (:
wish me luck.
byeeeeee.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:37 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006 -

if i were to go for an accurate x-ray of my lungs at the general hospital, i wont be surprised to see the walls all blackened and covered in a layer of soot.
at the rate of the staffs and managers huffing and puffing their freaking cigarettes in my freaking face, im bound to die a horrible death frm lung cancer or sth.
RAH GROWLS! ):
its like a routine thing:
lunch break, go to the back corridor to smoke.
toielt break, go to the back corridor to smoke.
dinner break, go to the back corridor to smoke AGAIN.
self-proclamied break (slacking), go to the back corridor to SMOKE.
whats the best part? im just a UNWILLING (half the time, i was cursing and swearing in my heart but i've got no place to hide) passive smoker.
myyy goodness, will it hurt if they just consume one less cigarette a day? at least i figured it sure helps me alot! reduce the risk of cancer, you know.
okay, tml i will make a trip down to the pharmacy and get 12 dozens boxes of nicorettes for u fellows. that will save my lungs for the time being. (:
the SOS signals emitting frm them are super strong!
*beep beep BEEP.

aye, i heard that the fish&co staffs are going to get brand new uniforms.
and only the suntec branch! O_O.
isnt it weird? i thought even if they were going to choose just one branch, it will go to glasshouse.
HMMMMM *wonders.
no longer going to be blue, but BLACK! :D
collin totally gave me the shock of the century.
i swear my mouth dropped to the floor and i stood stunned for 3 secs.
"the new staff uniforms MAY have skirts."
WAH LAOOOOO how on earth am i going to stand on the chairs and clean the freaking BIG WINDOWS.
i'm so sure their brains grow on their butts. wth.
have they forgot that it will cause lots of inconveniences for girls when we need to run around during busy dinner hours?
its insane really. whats wrong with their brains?!
what a bunch of idiots. (:
are the managers going to wear the same as us too? thats my question.
rosy definitely would not want to wear a skirt to work every day. hahha. im almost 100% sure.
oh btw, she's our damn hilarious restaurant manager.
erm, maybe shes secretly afraid her girlfriend will tease her in that piece of cloth.
shit lar, im so nonsensical man. :D like just entertaining myself here.
wahhhh, u are very free if u manage to read my crap till here.
bravo! i hereby conclude that u have high-rubbishcrap-tolerance.

heres a silly photo to end the day.

(ek and yh, i'm still waiting for those pics hor! :D)

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:54 PM

Thursday, February 23, 2006 -

right now, i could really imagine pulling all my hair and screaming till my voice breaks.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fuck, why must things seems so complicating when its not a very big deal.
the questions "should i do it or should i not?" kept flashing in my mind at turbo speed making my head spin like the Magic Teacups we see at funfairs/amusement parks.
no, im not joking.
oh wells, all i can pray is that things will return back to normal.
but it sure going to be kind of weird atmosphere lingering ard.
yucks, i dont even wanna think abt it. ):
maybe tml i will gather enough courage to do what i feel i ought to do.
lets go with the flow.

'EXCESSIVE BLOOD LOSS' (errrr herm) IS CAUSING ME GIDDINESS WHENEVER I SQUAT OR KNEEL DOWN.
what the hell man.
hello, my name is AUNTIE JEAN.
tskk.

this johari and nohari window is really funky shit.
my friend who takes psychology learn this model in some lecture.
its like a metaphorical tool that somehows test the communication and interpersonal relationships.
*omg, this came at such an appropriate time. my communication skill sucks to the moon and back.
yup, so u get to see what others see u as.
and i'll be able to analyse my own character.
dont u think its damn coool?!
HAHHA. most prob i'll get some really stupid adjectives.
check out my johari window! :D
of course, i'm interested in my other side. my nohari window.

after all, i just want some entertainment.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:43 PM

Wednesday, February 22, 2006 -

my legs are wobbly like jelly after working the crazy lunch hour and an hr of standing waiting for the fucking shuttle bus.
RAHHHH! oops.
i need the muscle relieve cream but i couldnt find it anywhere!
):
its a very weird feeling.
my legs feels kind of suan1?!?! (hahha hanyu pinyin)
arghhh, this sucks big time.

right, JENNY SHIMIZU APPEARED ON ANTM!!!
whooohooo! former calvin klein model.
what a pretty face. sweeet.
the only minor issue is the many million of tattoos on the diff parts of her body.
that really made me take a couple of steps back. yeah.
but gosh, amazing and unique model i would say :D
arent u guys sick of those dainty pretty face pageant queen models, huh?i think its time to change cause im so getting bored of them.

alamakkkk.
i realised i havent completed my stats 2 tutorial!
!%^$&*^(@&*^%!
oh no, my eyes are heavy and i'm alr in the 'sleeping queen' mode.

okay okay.
i go NOW. BYE.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:55 PM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006 -

my ex tution teacher is one hilarious shit!
it's been a yr and a half since i last saw him, and the first thing he said was "wah, so groovy now ah." wth.
wah laooo, means last time i was a full time nerd right.
tsk tskkk!!!
ohhh man, i kind of miss ah yee (mr yee) a lot. :D
and he still havent gave me a satisfying and proper answer why he is allowed to wear slippers into the room while the rest of us have to remove our shoes. that i just remembered!
ah yee cheat my feelings, damn.
but im eternally grateful to u cause praised that i was a hardworking girl during tution days.
yess, i really need that with my annoying-parents-that-was-almost-sure-i-was-a-lazybone present!!!
i was like totally grinning frm ear to ear at them as though i just attain 9As in O'levels.
hahha, dont worry ah yee. i promised i wont tear down your 6 years old 'Remove Your Shoes' notice for the TIME BEING. (:
(my hobby was attempting to tear down that stupid notice. but i never succeeded with him watching my back so closely. now may be the right time!)
and wowwww, the same old grouchy security guard is still working there?!?!
the surveillance camera of the building is finally working after say, 5 years!
goshhh, it really gave me the shock of my life when i saw the images on the tv.
hahha so i was wrong about the tv being spoilt last time! too much.

this staff working at the kitchen section of Best Denki told my dad that to check of the metal is stainless steel, just bring a magnet near it.
so if the magnet does not gets attracted, its stainless steel.
when we got home, each of us grabbed a magnet and started testing all the metal stuffs in the house.
whatever we can find. pots, pans, tap, towel rails, toiletpaper holder, etc.
its damn exciting to realise how much stainless steel stuffs there is in the house. hahah (:
"ohhhh dad! the TOILETP PAPER HOLDER is stainless steel!"
(huhhh, why did they even use stainless steel for that?!?!)
"really? check this towel rails here. they are stainless steel leh!"
ooops, sorry my dad is quite fascinated as u can see.
my mother claims that we look super retarded.
whatever man...

YAWNNNNNS.

the cleo and female mag that i secretly 'stole' frm fish&co is making me all guilty.
too late anyway, so toooo bad! (:
finders keepers, loser weepers. crazy.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:17 PM

Saturday, February 18, 2006 -

after some serious thought, i believe im the culprit behind the high electricity bills for the past few months.
i was talking to boon on msn last night.
and like i waited for her to reply till i fell asleep?!?!
it was 4.40 AM when i woke up. (erm yeah, i was somehow still online)
this is damn crazy! :D

we had a mini STATS revision today at macs.
my goddd, i really hate stats like i hate cheese. YUCKS.
anw, it was really fruitful cause i taught boon the 'secrets within her cool calculator'.
HAHAH in 1 min, she can get the variance, mean, standard deviation with the data.
i bet NO ONE IN YR CLASS KNOWS THIS!!!
show the hao lian guy yr power dude! (:
ssssssshhhhh. dont leak this out alright.

headed to ac funOrama at abt 1 plus.
there were just people, people and MORE PEOPLE.
my head was spinning, my vision blurred. plus the sun was burning my hair.
yes, hair! it was hot enough to cook an egg. o_O
yihan, ek, mich, yh, jane, boon and i just sat down at the hub and stuff ourselves with the food.
all the money was spent on food lar! wth.
according to gin and annie, the motto of the day is ' bu chi bai bu chi'. cause we kept having free food frm other friends.
so we my as well eat it or it will end up in the bin.
oh! the inflation rate at funfair is kind of sky-high tooo.
WOWWW, im actually applying econs! *beams (:
how can i allow myself to let such a filthy rich sch to eat all my $$$$.
rahhh. no such thing man.
*snatches money back.
i offered boon the choco fondue but she kindly rejected.
after that incident, chocolates definitely became one of the top 10 sensitive topics that u can ever mention in her prescence.
right, boon? *winks
(to get the full story, please refer to boon personally)
wells, funOrama looks like a huge sucess. they have lots of sponsors and activites going on.
goood job folks! cheers (:

but the weather just have to dampen my mood lar.
GROWLS ):
i had to brave the storm and rain just to meet ek, yihan and mich in town.
and things just got worse when my ezlink has $-0.15. bleahhh.
but yeah, i made it there in one piece still.
praise the heavenly lord!
afer seeing ek getting haivanas for her sis, im so tempted to get one!
omg, ORANGE AND GREEN ROCKS BABY!
okay okay, counting down to payday! (:

waited for miss loh, then billy-bombed (haha?!?!) with 1/3 of the clique.
aye the ambience was really coool shit!
so olden american style. i love. *nods
we were damn amazed with the flipping record thingy at the table too.
the cream of mushrooom was pretty appetising. *slurpss (:
right, the milkshakes got really good responses as well.
yihan the pro milkshaker was having hella fun till she spilled some of mich's cookies and cream!
had a laughing fit. hahhaa.
oh HERES THE SHOCK OF THE DAY....
mich has a rich bf (judge for yrself later) that gave her a TIFFANY AND CO on Vday.
osh kosh be goshhhhhhhh!
hurry someone just come and kill me. NOW NOW.
wait, guess what? he drives a JAGUAR leh!!!
mich claims that a jaguar is not a very expensive car.
like hello mich, its a J-A-G-U-A-R damnit! of course its expensive.
*FAINTS.
this is far too much for me to take! i cant seem to breathe.
i sincerely hope that mich wont bully his boyfriend.
dont worry i will pray hard for him.

the night is short,
i need to catch up on my sleep.

mixed emotions going out of control.
teach me what to do.
i may be stuck.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:48 PM

Thursday, February 16, 2006 -

ac funOrama is really driving my poor friends up the walls.
yinghuey has been baking COOKIES the whole day!
(yes, lets all bow down to her cause we finally discover her talent for baking)
they have to bake say, 3000 cookies?!?!
my goddd, thats enough to last me my entire life.
and i may, i said MAY get one or two free frm her! :D
WAHHHHHH! coookies here i come!
pooor sher has to lug HER OVEN AND ICE BOX to sch tml.
yeah, i was like O_O, did i hear u say oven?
this funfair sounds very much like a festive gathering!
hahha WHAT THE HELL. (:

the new loreal studioline out of bed putty hold is not as strong as mr gatsby.
it just couldnt stand!
hmmm, maybe i just need to apply more.
and prob grasp the technique of styling?
oh ohhhh now i miss my gatsby!
WAILSSSSSSS ):
somehow i got this strong feeling i will throw my loreal and get another gatsby.
conclusion: gatsby hair styling products beat other brands hands down!

my mom is damn cute lar.
i caught her mucnching on leftover pineapple tarts.
she gave me an "oooops" look and grin!
i immediately pop down next to her and start snacking :D

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:15 PM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006 -

oh ohhh yeah! (:
FINAL DESTINATION 3 COMING TO THEATRES LATE FEB IN SPORE!
wheeeeeeee :D
the trailer looks pretty exciting to me.
my goddd i cant wait.
*beams :D
and there is this teenager named 'jean' as well.
at this point, i was somehow proud that my name was one of the character's name in the movie (erm, i have no idea why i was feeling proud!)
its just came to me like that!
but hang on dudes, check out the description.
"perished in mysterious circumstances" was her description.
WHAT RUBBISH IS THIS. thanks lot huh.
its not even anything close to 'school punk' or 'great athlete' or 'best cheerleader' like the other characters.
now, am i suppose to still feel proud?!

did i mention that i have TWO HUGE ulcers on my upper and lower lip?
damnnit, it fucking hurts like mad.
RAHHHHH! ):
i aint going to speak for the rest of the week.

dear god, i may truly hate my sisters after all.
my lip balm and gatsby clay has become their victims.
my condolences to Miss Lip Ice and Mr Gatsby.
its my fault that you have to go through such horrible treatment.
one day, i'll catch a bug and put into her shoes.
or maybe tear up pages of her hw.
how about switching off the lights and heater while she's bathing.
evil as it seems, i belived its a good deal after what i've been tolerating for the past 18 yrs of my teenage life.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:48 PM

Monday, February 13, 2006 -

seriously, the bukit merah library hates me.
):
i couldnt find the Romeo And Juliet book on the shelves when its not on loan!
checked the com so im pretty sure abt this.
blahhhhh, where art thouuuu?
oh and then there was some stupuid problem with my card and i couldnt borrow my books.
like they said 'verification required'?!?!
piece of shit!
maybe i shld just burn the library down.

it suddenly occured to me that Valentine's Day tml.
hahah, not like i have a date or anything (im single and available!) but im scheduled to work tml.
its bad enough to me. ):
to add on to my misery, that annoying arrogant shitified Azmi is working tooo.
my goddddd, i have to bear with his long black face for 5 hours!
*faints.
pls tell me how can i pull through?
and i thought the 'best couple look' contest was really redundant and waste of time.
plus the Vday menu totally SUCKS TO THE MOON AND BACK.
aye im not kidding u know.
the starter is the miserable soup of the day and one SINGLE scoop of ice cream for dessert?!
wah laoooooo, i dont think this is romantic and special at all.
IM SURE U GUYS OUT THERE CAN TREAT YR GIRLFRIENDS TO A MORE ROMANTIC VDAY DINNER THAN THIS. *roars
refer to previous entry on gender discrimination.
yeahh, i mean me having a prob with gender discrimination.

lastly, to all singles out there.
CHEEERS TO ANOTHER YEAR OF GREAT SINGLEHOOD! :D

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:46 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006 -

Saturday
WAH LAO NEVER EVER TRUST THE !#$^&%*# ONLINE STREET DIRECTORY!!!
cause we got happily cheated to go to kallang thinking THERE IS a palm baech seafood restaurant there.
GROWLS )):
all thanks to the fucking street directory.
its sooooo ulu there. not even a single soul okay!
miraculously, we saw this empty cab coming in. ( i mean which taxi driver in the right state of mind will drive into kallang when its like so big and ulu-fied?!?! )
and hc, sher and shi started waving frantically, running like the taxi driver is their saviour or sth.
they headed for One Fullerton (where the stupid palm beach is) first.
so boon and i stayed squatted at the empty carpark waiting for that girl to come.
well, u would think that we are in a foul mood by now after all that hopeless searching under the idiotic sorching sun.
but hell no, BOOON WAS LKE "WANT SOME CHOCOLATE MARSHMELLOWS?"
HAHAHAH! (:
omgggg, she's so freaking funny lar!
my sulk turned into a smile :D

i dont think i wanna step into kallang every again.
cause getting a cab is damn mentally and physically exhausting!
step 1, combat with those negative feelings and emotions within u( like tiredness hoplessness and all)
step 2, open YR BIG EYES and try to spot a cab frm afar.
step 3, run towards the cab, okay maybe sprint.
step 4, wave both yr hands in the air, FRANTICALLY. this is to ensure you get hold of the driver's attention.
yes yes, thats alot of hard work alright! wth.
the three of us almost fainted in the cab o_O.
oh right, i think i might have fallen in love with all the cab drivers!
hahah (:

so we reached one fullerton at like 450.
guess what? the restaurant only opens at 530!
argh, the whole day was spent travelling and waiting.
SULKS. too much ):
however, we had alot of fun taking photos at the merlion park.
as usual, u can expect alot of stupid and funny shots from the sneaky photographers.
we were somehwhat very high?!

aye lets see whats for yummilicious dinner!
2 kg of pepper crabs that costs 33 bucks a kg.
1 hongkong steamed fish. u know the kind in the sweet soya sauce, yeah? ard 52 bucks! eating fish in restaurants is like insanely expensiveeeee.
1 medium size fragrance fried rice.
oh and tea too!
the bill came it was like 172 SINGAPORE DOLLARS!!!
its like the most expensive dinner we ever ate tgt man!
*beams :D
wah, i love seafood. wheeee!
luckily we had the 50 bucks discount coupon so it was quite a good deal.

LIKE THIS ISNT FILLING ENOUGH,
we stopped over at tcc in citylink for coffee and cakes.
like straightaway leh!
holy shit, we are really a bunch of greedy pigs.
i was totally entertaining myself with boon's cammomile tea thingy.
okay, we spent another 60 plus over there?!?!
curent fiancial status : NEGATIVE value.

they just have to hold the thaipusam thing in town what!
on a saturday night somemore!
really best can.
RAH RAHHHH, town was like a mini little india.
i hate it.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:28 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006 -

i cant believe i actually went with hc to get TAMPONS at carrefour.
it was highly embarrassing i tell u.
left with no choice, i had to use toothpaste box, toothbrush and lip balm to cover the 'TAMPAX' words o_O!
AHHAA. i bet u guys thinks we shop for very weird stuffs.
like so auntie-fied!
well she claims that its more comfortable than pads?
hmmm, i cant wait to laugh at her if she happens to cant remove it.
OOOPS :D

oh and hc's new addiction is,
WHATEVER MAN YOUR MOTHER WORKS AT MACDONALDS WITH A MINIMUM WAGE OF THREE DOLLARS A MONTH.
and like this is not bitchy or gay enough, there is the 'M' and 'W' handsign to go along.
i was about to slap her or sth.

yay! seafood feast at palm beach tml :D
deer meet is very much missed.
friday nights can be very loooooooong.

i dont know why, i just cant take my eyes off you.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:24 PM

Thursday, February 09, 2006 -

the online street directory is like super stupid.
i typed 'east coast' in the street category and all i got was 'returned 0 search'.
like WHAT THE HELL!
screw whoever who came up with the directory system.
but being the smart and resourceful jean, i managed to find palm beach restaurant!
(:
WHEEE!
and i realised that 16 actually goes there.
now thats easy (:
BLACK PEPPER CRABS!!! :D

younger cousin was hilarious man.
saw him shopping at citylink with his friends.
for yr info, he bloody hell stays in the bedok area?!?!
OMGGGG, thats like 1264859607837 stops away frm cityhall.
so naturally i was quite amazed o_O.
and he told me not to tell anyone including his parents!
ORH HOR, bad kid.
hahah quick bribe me or something. if not i will spill yr dirt little secret. :D

okay, after seeing what some of my friends are going through.
im definitely sure that guys are selfish and insensitive jerks/species/animals or whatsoever.
*rolls eyes
i think i alr had this mentality some time ago.
but now everything just prove this statement right. so it kinda gets rooted in my freaking brain.
i know i sound like one with major problem with gender discrimination.
so what? i dont bloody give a damn.
girls rocks. (:
chant that a hundred times to receive the same effect.

KANASEI.
off to brainwash myself that girls rocks more than guys.

countdown timer to my 18th birthday works for me.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:20 PM

if only i was small and thin enough.
then i could squeeze into vive's luggage and go to hongkong with her.
BOOHOOO ):
they are going there to watch Hongkong Rugby Sevens in actions!!!
MY GODDDDD.
its like an annual event for their company.
sort of like a bonding thing for them.
the food will be awesome and the accomodation is five stars!
but most important, the matches totally ROCKS i tell u.
seeeeee, why didnt i go work out regularly.
now theres not even the slightest hope ):
serve u right, stupid jean.

jayla is like ranked first for my most hated america's next top model.
give me a B.
give me a I.
give me a T.
give me a C.
give me a H.
what do u get?
B I T C H.

and wow, im surprised i do have readers frm italy?!
like HUHHHH
O_O.
well, work was sucky today.
bleah, there was sth really wrong cause i couldnt click with the staff on duty.
haha off frequency.

okie dokey. i need to go SLEEEP.
my eyes are closing.
bye!

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:29 AM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006 -

after witnessing the gruesome process of sharks poachers (?!?!) sawing the fins and leaving the pooor sharks to fend for themselves in the ocean.
i dont think i'll still think shark's fins soup is a delicacy anymore. ):
like ohhh my holy crap, they just make the shark unconscious and STEPPED ON the shark with this really BIG RAZOR SHARP SAW and start sawing like they would with a piece of log.
EWWWWW!
its super gross i tell u.
the red blood starts oozing out from the flesh and the water becomes one red sea.
i could feel a tingling sensation.

and the best part is they just HAPPILY FREE THE HALF CONSCIOUS SHARKS back into the RED SEA.
of course without their precious fins!
seriously, its too much man!
those damn sharks poachers oughta get banished in hell.
GROWLSSSS ):

im going to start the "LETS ALL SAVE THE SHARKS AND CONSUME LESS SHARKS FIN" campaign.
if u feel for those sharks like me, please participate actively.
thank you very much :D

maybe i could come up with an emo playlist with all the sad songs.
make navigations so much easier for me what.

white jackets looks pretty charming.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:12 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006 -

stab my back, its better when i bleed for you.
so bottle up old love,
and throw it out to sea.
watch it away as u cry.
a year has passed.
the seasons go.

and omg, im actually craving for max brenner's!
CHOCOLATE FONDUE :D
*swallows saliva.
my friend is super accident prone lar.
please sleep with the lights on and doors open next time.
all those unncessary 'tragedies' shld end by now!
well, u know who youuuuuuu are right? (:

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:36 AM

Sunday, February 05, 2006 -

please just dont play with me.
my paper heart will bleed.

u know what, LOH YINGHUEY U ARE ONE VERY SNEAKY TOOT!
stop appearing offline okay! come and talk to me!
i told u i had a sixth sense. some sort of unexplainable magnetic forces was drawing me to check the tagboard at my blog :D
ohhh my goddd, i was thinking how the fuck did u reply so fast!
its just a trick u are playing.

looks like i just expose yr secret here. wheee (:
but u got yr aim lor.
DO U SEEE YR BIG HONOURABLE NAME THERE!?!
*beams haha.

WHATTTTTTTT! my mum lost 5kg!O_O

*pauses for 1 min.

even my mama manage to diet and lost weight.
now i oughta to feel very much ashame of myself.
like hello, my mom lost a freaking 5 KILOGRAMS!!!
my face is even blacker than bao qing tian now.
growls. ):

oh today was my ah gong's birthday.
i love my grandpa :D and my grandma.
oh wells, sighhhh.
i guess she will stay alive in my heart always.

AHHHH! boon why must the src touch rugby training falls on the same day as my drums!
it sounds pretty fun and exciting ):
maybe i can pop in from time to time aye? *winks
just that yr coach will think im such a weirdo. really.
yeahh wait till i master it at the back of my hands then i join u at src!

right right, by hook or by crook i will go learn wakeboarding this year.
jean stop dragging.
i told myself i'll learn wakeboarding after O levels.
loook its alr 2006 nowwww!
time past so freaking fast can. 2 years gone in a flash. ):
i shld stop being an all-rubbish-talk-but-no-actions person.
hahha everybody donate to the jean's wakeboarding fund please!!!
:D

singapore is rather hip and cool after all.
i thought the cable wakeboarding thingy only existed in batam.
but hell no they have it right here on our island! east coast! (:
goshhhh, this i cant wait.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 10:58 PM

atmosphere at gin's place was kind of weird i guess. (:
cause like i dont know them at all.
and yeahh, her family including her aunties and uncles came over for steamboat.
we were just eating half the time lar.
my mouth was constantly moving NON STOP! tskkkk!
and gin cheong dont feel so bad cause u arent a bad host!

ROMEO AND JULIET still one of my all time fav after i watched it say 6 times?!?!
will u think im losing my mind if i say 'i love thee' sounds sweet and meaningful.

her cousin Jolie really did crack me up and amuse me :D
i had to help her tear the Strawberry Shortcake paper doll from the book.
and seriously, ITS NOT EASY OKAYYY!
wth! i must have been too slow for her cause she asked if i could hurry up.
i was like o_O huhhhhhh?
oh! and she comes up with her own games too.
thats like a very creative and unbelivable primary one kid.
goodness, whats going on with the kids these days lar.
the fact that her left hand couldnt touch her left shoulder was cool.
but awwww, pooor lil girl.

headed off to bukit panjang plaza at ard 9 plus.
wanted to settle at Starbucks but luck wasnt on our side.
no empty seats and sooo no warm chocolate cake for poor jeannnnn.
crycry ):
in the end we drank frappes at cafe cartel.
it wasnt bad. just that i couldnt taste mint in my coffee!
wah laooo, cheat my feelings man.
haha we kope like 50ml worth of vodka raspberry from her brother.
mixed with like 10 ml of minutemaid lime.
yes, i know the concentration sounds wrong.
all thanks to our maths genius gin (:
btw, it was what-the-hell-disgusting-feeling!
YUCKS.

i get scared easily when people around me starts to cry.
cause basically i just have no idea what to do.
ooopsy daisy. (:
oh wells, ginbabe i hope u feel much better after tonight.
maybe the pain will get lesser. just take yr own time.
i want yr old self back alright.
in case u didnt know, the old gin rocks (:
annie, how was band dinner? good?
though u stayed only for a while today, i still felt the same old familiar feeling.
what can i say, im satisfied.

ARGHHH, the coffee is making me wide awake!!!

*warning*
dont ever take 970 buses past 11.
the drivers are R E C K L E S S.
ohhhh im sure glad i came home alive in one piece.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:15 AM

Friday, February 03, 2006 -

oh my oh my, overdosage of endorphins.
i seriously think i might die of escatasy. right this moment.
:D with a milliondollar smile.
Chocolate Decadence at hagen daz was fucking awesome and good.
i could rem the taste inside my mouth, on my tastebuds.
AHHHH!
yes, chocolates are my best saviour.

we felt so comfortable at the holland village hagen daz that we sat till 10 plus.
and i actually DO write letters to yh and sher back in crescent days?!?!
O_O
woww, that i dont remember at all eh.
and my smiley faces (: appearing in every single sentence really made me laugh quite a bit.
haha, stupid yinghuey is such an asshole.

oh wells, used to be a happy girl.
whats happening to me now?
i start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane.
thinking abt the meaning of resistance of a hope beyond my own.
suddenly the infinte and penitent begin to look like home.
this is sooo RAH RAHHHH.
maybe im the one to blame.

on a lighter note, catching up with the nienie babes tml!
everybody cheer for me! (:
damnit, i miss them lots.
this is worth counting down to.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:32 PM

Wednesday, February 01, 2006 -

toooo much chinese new yr break makes me more lazy and tired than ever.
tsk tskk! *shakes head
back at work today and i couldnt stop yawning.
gawddd, my eyes were all watery lar.
i believe i will be able to close my eyes and go into lalaland even if i was just standing!
yes yes, that was how damn tired i was.

whenever i think of the countless pineapple tarts, hundreds of snowwhites, massive amounts of candies, uncountable love letters that was dumped into my expanded tummy.
i have the urge to open a big hole in the centre of my stomach and remove all that sinful rubbish inside.
OKAY, I OFFICIALLY HATE CHINESE NEW YR. ):
(except of the ang pow part of course)

didnt exactly did alot of shopping so i hope the post cny sale will be good. (:
yay, lets shop till we drop!

ohh oh! hot babe Kyle is out from america's next top model!!!
booohoooooooo!
*WAILS.
she has all the potentials to be a model.
loves her gorgeous face and hot body!
and i get highly annoyed when i got reminded that _________ is the winner.
*i shall spare the spoilers for the welfares of those ANTM fans out there (:
YUCKS.
i dont know why but she just do not appeal to me a single bit.
right, i miss janice dickinson.

TOMMY IS MY FRIEND. HAHA.
is he your friend?

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:57 PM