Thursday, March 23, 2006 -

whats death?
what do I know about death?
its like im being so numb to it that it has become a part of me.
i no longer feel shocked, taken aback when it hits me right smack in the face unexpectedly.
guess all i do is give a sigh and accept the damn fate.

POOOF and then you disappear frm my world.
till today, im still working my way to attainment of coldbloodedness.
slow and steady.
so near yet so far.
but i know i will make it.
and i wont cry for you no more.

im not okay. im not fucking okay.

right, dont tell me all those shit that everything will turn out fine.
and all will return to normal crap.
i dont take that at all.
you and i jolly well know very clear that its bloody not true.
cause things has took a 360 degrees change frm here.
we are not going back to how and where we use to be.

i miss you gran.
i'll still love you more tomorrow.
and you will be here with me still.
this i promise.

jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 11:46 PM

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