Monday, September 24, 2007 -
It's all coming back to me.finally after 2 years, it's all coming back to me again.
all those fear, pain, anxiety, anger, frustration.
i feel them like it just playback yesterday.
didn't expect to battle them face to face just so soon. it seems sooner than i thought.
nobody told me it was this hard.
nobody can ever explain why this was so hard.
maybe, i'm not ready for it.
or rather, i just can never be ready for it. never.
yes, i'm an asshole sometimes.
i'm a pain in the ass, such a total mess.
good gosh.
what the hell was i thinking?
and all of a sudden, i feel so small and alone.
damn the 3rd sleepless night.
jeanthemean
cried her heart out at 12:38 AM
